-The Journey of a lonely abused young girl who becomes a lovely Bride & Wife who suffers from multiple painful illnesses that are Chronic/Hidden and Mental Health issues. -She enjoys Crocheting, Altered Journals, Beading, Sewing, Quilting,Gardening, DIY furniture Flips when possible and Historical Romances. She also loves poetry. But most of all the Victorian Era of Romance, Manners, Dignity and Integrity. -Come one... Come All to the Masquerade Ball......
Tuesday, December 9, 2014
Upcoming New Year Promising Expansion
Hello, My Friends *waves a paw *
This past year has been a really tough time for me. Between my health going to pot and losing many dear friends to cancer. Losing my husband 's father. Finding out that my Father is in the last stage of Young Onset Parkinson Disease with Dementia and that I may also have it as well. I am praying that it is my Thyroid level being too low, but I highly doubt it is.
I'm going to see 3 different types of doctors tomorrow so please pray for me. The Cardiologist, the Endocrinologist and the Rheumatologist. Right now I am trying to get over a nasty virus and UT I {Urinary tract infection}. I did not have the usual symptoms one might have. I ended up with severe vertigo, lightheadness, dizziness, and inflammation in my ribs, lower back and rump. Not fun at all!
I go back later this week to see the Orthopedic doctor to see if the Enchondroma {a Bone Tumor made up of a Cartilage like material.} has grown. If it has, it means that I have Bone Cancer. So please keep me in your prayers and thoughts.
In great news, I am going to be complete the Editing job I am working on and then the real fun begins! I am getting ready to revamp my site and I am utterly going to be enjoying the entire process, for real. I will post the link here when I am up and running. I am contemplating moving to @Weebly though. I will still be on @Twitter and @Pinterest, my home away from home, lol.
Until We Next Meet,
Karen M. Roth a. k. a.
MASQERADING CRAFTER
Saturday, November 29, 2014
Our Local FISH Food Bank Needs Your Donations, Please
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| Someone's Mobile upload of the FISH Food Bank Fire on Facebook |
***UPDATE*** They are now using the bus barn behind Mercer Creek Church for now. But in order to get the insurance to cover all the needed fridges and freezers they need a bigger building Donated to them that can be their very own building. Will someone please step up and Donate please? ******1/21/2016
We really need your help. The Food Bank burnt down after Thanksgiving. Are you willing to help: http://t.co/YMpUxUPCmb pic.twitter.com/uRv5G5CA4E
— Karen Roth (@ffpaws) November 30, 2014
Tuesday, October 28, 2014
Moment of Silence, Please......Ode to Pa Bear
On October 23rd I lost my dear sweet Pa Bear ( a.k.a. Don Roth).
He was the one who walked me down the aisle when I married his youngest son, Ben.
Christmas will never be the same.....
Ode to Pa Bear (Bear-Bear)
He was gentle, loving, and oh so kind,
how we each ache being left behind.
But we strive to imitate your softest answer in love,
as you gently whisper from above.
With the softest of breeze,
My heart frees,
remembering a lesson as sweet as a dove.
How you silently show others your love for them.........
In actions, thoughts and deeds.
He was the one who walked me down the aisle when I married his youngest son, Ben.
Christmas will never be the same.....
Ode to Pa Bear (Bear-Bear)
He was gentle, loving, and oh so kind,
how we each ache being left behind.
But we strive to imitate your softest answer in love,
as you gently whisper from above.
With the softest of breeze,
My heart frees,
remembering a lesson as sweet as a dove.
How you silently show others your love for them.........
In actions, thoughts and deeds.
Tuesday, September 9, 2014
Update on Karen....
Hello My Friends,
August 22nd I had a Ischemic Stroke and then again on September 4th I had another one in the MRI machine. They kept me in the hospital for only 2 days then released me.
I saw my regular doctor yesterday and she is not too sure they were strokes but thinks it may have been Migraine related so she gave me a Referral to see a Neurologist. May have been Birth control pill related.
I stayed at home nursing what I 'thought' was a Severe Earache from the 22nd of August until my Cardiologist receptionist made me call 911 on September 3rd. Very foolish move!
So far all my heart tests have been negative except for an Inappropriate Sinus Tachycardia and High Blood Pressure.
So please pray that the doctors can figure it all out so we can prevent it in the future.
I am so very weak and extremely fatigued. Been sleeping alot.
That is all I know for now.
I have an upcoming appointment with my Cardiologist.
They really want me to get back into Counseling again. So I have to make that appointment as well.
So far I have lost half of my smile and I have permanent Left Sided Weakness with my left hand being really fumbly. Lucky for me that I am Right Handed so that means I can still crochet!!!! But I am still alive, Praise God! The Lord is good and loving.
The Lord is guiding me through this dark valley one baby step at a time.
August 22nd I had a Ischemic Stroke and then again on September 4th I had another one in the MRI machine. They kept me in the hospital for only 2 days then released me.
I saw my regular doctor yesterday and she is not too sure they were strokes but thinks it may have been Migraine related so she gave me a Referral to see a Neurologist. May have been Birth control pill related.
I stayed at home nursing what I 'thought' was a Severe Earache from the 22nd of August until my Cardiologist receptionist made me call 911 on September 3rd. Very foolish move!
So far all my heart tests have been negative except for an Inappropriate Sinus Tachycardia and High Blood Pressure.
So please pray that the doctors can figure it all out so we can prevent it in the future.
I am so very weak and extremely fatigued. Been sleeping alot.
That is all I know for now.
I have an upcoming appointment with my Cardiologist.
They really want me to get back into Counseling again. So I have to make that appointment as well.
So far I have lost half of my smile and I have permanent Left Sided Weakness with my left hand being really fumbly. Lucky for me that I am Right Handed so that means I can still crochet!!!! But I am still alive, Praise God! The Lord is good and loving.
The Lord is guiding me through this dark valley one baby step at a time.
Thursday, August 28, 2014
Please Keep Me in Your Prayers and Thoughts.......
Hello Friends,
I have a very good reason for having been only on Pinterest and not blogging every day like I wish I could be doing. Reality has knocked me down and is keeping me down for now.
The 22nd I had my first meeting with my Cardiologist at Virginia Mason Hospital in Seattle. He immediately ordered the Doppler Echocardiogram. This test informed me that 3 of my heart valves are Regurgitating blood, That my Left Atrium is Enlarged. I was also diagnosed with Grade 1 Left Ventricular Diastolic Dysfunction. Which means that I have Congestive Heart Failure (CHF). Just click on the link and it will take you to Mayo Clinic's definition.
He also wanted me to wear the ZIOxt heart monitor for 14 days, but after four days it was very apparent that my Adhesive Allergy was not going to let me as I broke out with a blistering rash under the monitor and tape. I am on a Steroid cream for it.
I have become a very Depressed woman as I want to do, but I cannot do and I am pelted with my Vow Renewal Dreams. It means so much to me.
So please add me to any Prayer Chains going,
I know that Prayer Changes things and I may need a Miracle sooner than was thought.
Thanks for your Friendship and Love.
I have a very good reason for having been only on Pinterest and not blogging every day like I wish I could be doing. Reality has knocked me down and is keeping me down for now.
The 22nd I had my first meeting with my Cardiologist at Virginia Mason Hospital in Seattle. He immediately ordered the Doppler Echocardiogram. This test informed me that 3 of my heart valves are Regurgitating blood, That my Left Atrium is Enlarged. I was also diagnosed with Grade 1 Left Ventricular Diastolic Dysfunction. Which means that I have Congestive Heart Failure (CHF). Just click on the link and it will take you to Mayo Clinic's definition.
He also wanted me to wear the ZIOxt heart monitor for 14 days, but after four days it was very apparent that my Adhesive Allergy was not going to let me as I broke out with a blistering rash under the monitor and tape. I am on a Steroid cream for it.
I have become a very Depressed woman as I want to do, but I cannot do and I am pelted with my Vow Renewal Dreams. It means so much to me.
So please add me to any Prayer Chains going,
I know that Prayer Changes things and I may need a Miracle sooner than was thought.
Thanks for your Friendship and Love.
Tuesday, August 5, 2014
Long Time No See And I Can Really Use Your Prayers
Hello Dear Friends,
It has been one heck of a week for me.
First, it started off with me going to visit my Endocrinologist at +Virginia Mason for my Thyroid, She promptly sent me straight over to ER as my Blood Pressure was 140/99 and my pulse was 129. Even after giving me 2 liters of fluids which normally affects the heart rate, it did nothing to mine and they could not get it to go below 111. So they released me back home to go see my regular doctor which I did the very next day who promptly diagnosed me with Sinus Tachycardia and an Enlarged heart. It also appears it may all be because my COPD is getting worse.
I am on doctor's orders to just rest and to avoid any and all kinds of stress at all cost. So I had to tell this to my boss ( the author) so please pray that he is very kind about it and actually lets me rest. It will be hard for him as we are truly down to the very last chapter of his book.
To be honest, I am downright scared of my future even though I know I should not be as a Christian but I am. I finally talked to a Friend from Church last night about it. I just wish I could talk to my hubby about it but he keeps taking off to go hiking with the dog and leaving me alone for hours. I think and my friend thinks that it is because he cannot handle what is going on with my health and that he might be truly frightened but not knowing what to do about it. That coupled with his having a Mid-life Crises.
That is where it stands for now.
I will post more as I am able to do so.
Until Next Time,
Love,
Karen
It has been one heck of a week for me.
First, it started off with me going to visit my Endocrinologist at +Virginia Mason for my Thyroid, She promptly sent me straight over to ER as my Blood Pressure was 140/99 and my pulse was 129. Even after giving me 2 liters of fluids which normally affects the heart rate, it did nothing to mine and they could not get it to go below 111. So they released me back home to go see my regular doctor which I did the very next day who promptly diagnosed me with Sinus Tachycardia and an Enlarged heart. It also appears it may all be because my COPD is getting worse.
I am on doctor's orders to just rest and to avoid any and all kinds of stress at all cost. So I had to tell this to my boss ( the author) so please pray that he is very kind about it and actually lets me rest. It will be hard for him as we are truly down to the very last chapter of his book.
To be honest, I am downright scared of my future even though I know I should not be as a Christian but I am. I finally talked to a Friend from Church last night about it. I just wish I could talk to my hubby about it but he keeps taking off to go hiking with the dog and leaving me alone for hours. I think and my friend thinks that it is because he cannot handle what is going on with my health and that he might be truly frightened but not knowing what to do about it. That coupled with his having a Mid-life Crises.
That is where it stands for now.
I will post more as I am able to do so.
Until Next Time,
Love,
Karen
Wednesday, July 2, 2014
Major Bummed....I am lost in the Vast World of Boredom
Hi there my Friends *waves a paw*
Sorry to have disappeared.....We lost our internet and cannot afford to get it back again. I
have just been approached for an editing job. I am taking it.....Yay and it's for pay!
God works in mysterious ways!
In health news, I have been in the hospital for a short three day heavy antibiotics and Prednisone stay. Now I have had 2 colonoscopies within a month of each other ugggh! I have been diagnosed with Lympocytic Colitis which is good news. It is not Ulcerative Colitis like they originally thought.
I think I may have a very rare Endocrine Disease that I have been trying like mad to find the link to the article for my doctor.
Catch ya later!
Sorry to have disappeared.....We lost our internet and cannot afford to get it back again. I
have just been approached for an editing job. I am taking it.....Yay and it's for pay!
God works in mysterious ways!
In health news, I have been in the hospital for a short three day heavy antibiotics and Prednisone stay. Now I have had 2 colonoscopies within a month of each other ugggh! I have been diagnosed with Lympocytic Colitis which is good news. It is not Ulcerative Colitis like they originally thought.
I think I may have a very rare Endocrine Disease that I have been trying like mad to find the link to the article for my doctor.
Catch ya later!
Monday, May 19, 2014
A Blanket to Dye for.....My Current Undertaking....
How Do You Do?
This is my latest undertaking :
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| Torn Fringe Trim |
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| The Fringe is mostly reusable, Yeah! Free Trim for me! |
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| The Blanket to Dye for....It was given to me by a neighbor for free. I am in the process of trying to dye it blue. Pray that the Kool-aid works as the Food Coloring did not :o(. .I |
I just love the Crewel work on this blanket, but I despise it being white in a place that owns a black haired puppy. So I really want it to be blue!
I am going to let it soak tonight since I have added Blue Raspberry Lemonade +Kool-Aid to the water. Please pray it works. It has been soaking for three days in just food coloring but it did not even touch it.
I am also dyeing white rose petals I need for our Vow Renewal.
My Hubby is sooooo very sweet! He bought me white yarn and an extra packet of +Kool-aid! Guess what I am going to do ? I am going to try dyeing my yarn blue. I am so excited! Got a question though.....Do I let it dry out in the sun? I would have to lay it over our railing...or on my chair :o) I had to explain to my loving hubby that the excitement was in the actual process of dyeing the Yarn as he asked a very earnest question of, "Why don't you just buy blue yarn?" His strength is dealing with Computers, Mine is Creativity.
Until Next Time,
Karen
A Tad Late......My Easter Tablescape
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| Just Ducky |
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| Front View |
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| The Quilt-as-you-go Carrot Runner I made :o) |
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| My Favorite drawing of Jesus done by an 8 year old girl who had died and was sent back with the extraordinary gift for drawing and painting. You can see it in the book "Heaven is for Real" |
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| Front left view |
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| Some Bunny Love ya! |
In the last two pictures you can see all the coffee filters I was dyeing at the time for a wreath I still have not yet had the chance to make as I need a wreath form to do it, lol. I got a bit ahead of myself :o)
The white runner is a gift from my mother-in-law.
The bright yellow placemats were a gift from a dear church friend Lucy.
The main part of the centerpiece is a mason jar craft I did ages ago for Easter. I put floral foam in the jar and poked some faux flowers from the +Dollar Tree covered the top with grass and a couple of plastic eggs. At the time I had a tree branch poked into it as well with little cardstock birds I had made hanging from the branches along with a few eggs. Then I tied a silk ribbon around the top of the jar. <---free :o="" p="" tutorial="">
I take Easter very seriously as well as Christmas. Because without the Lord I would not be alive to be typing and blogging. So I am very Thankful to the Lord for the many times He has saved me from certain death.
Until Next Time,
Karen
The bright yellow placemats were a gift from a dear church friend Lucy.
The main part of the centerpiece is a mason jar craft I did ages ago for Easter. I put floral foam in the jar and poked some faux flowers from the +Dollar Tree covered the top with grass and a couple of plastic eggs. At the time I had a tree branch poked into it as well with little cardstock birds I had made hanging from the branches along with a few eggs. Then I tied a silk ribbon around the top of the jar. <---free :o="" p="" tutorial="">
I take Easter very seriously as well as Christmas. Because without the Lord I would not be alive to be typing and blogging. So I am very Thankful to the Lord for the many times He has saved me from certain death.
Until Next Time,
Karen
Quick and Easy Crafts....
Long Time no See, Ya''!
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| Flower Scarf Hanger- Using Dollar Tree hangers, Shower Rings Flat back pearls, Household String. |
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| Flower Shape- with flat back pearls. |
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| My Favorite! Shabby Chic Jars using household string, lace, flat back pearls and Paint. |
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| Lid 1 |
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| Lid 2 |
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| My personal reminder that Love is the greatest gift you can give to anyone..... On the other side of this rock I put Please Turn Me Over...I use it to weight my mail to go out down. Once I get my mail out I turn it from Please Turn Me Over to this side :o).
I do hope that you will try your hand at these simple, but very satisfying crafts.
Until Next Time,
Karen
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Ruffle Necklace
Howdy Friends,
This was done quite some time ago and I never got around to sharing it so here it is without further ado.....
What I did was crochet three different layers and then sewed them together at different depths.
This was done quite some time ago and I never got around to sharing it so here it is without further ado.....
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| Ruffle Necklace |
What I did was crochet three different layers and then sewed them together at different depths.
It worked up really quickly and was fun to make.
I have another necklace in the works that is my own design. As soon as I can write it out I will post it here. May take a while though.
May you have a wonderful................. and God Bless you richly! <---fill :o="" are="" blank="" in="" p="" the="" wherever="" world="" you="">
Until Next Time,
Karen
May you have a wonderful................. and God Bless you richly! <---fill :o="" are="" blank="" in="" p="" the="" wherever="" world="" you="">
Until Next Time,
Karen
Live,Laugh,Love...Believe...
Welcome, My Friends!
I am sorry that I have been offline for so long, but the net connection we are currently using is up ...then it's down...then it's up ....then it's down. Which I mean it is down more than it is up :o(.
I so want a dedicated line, but we still owe $129 and some change on our old bill that my hubby refuses to pay. It would be so lovely if I could open our mailbox one of these days and have a gifted check to pay for our bill so we could get hooked back up again. But as of now, it is just wishful dreaming and right at the time I so want to get professional with my blog and non-profit. Just another mountain standing in my way.
I have been using my down time to work on WIP's and I actually finished two of them last night!
The paper flower was made by me out of a coffee filter that I had dyed.
I am sorry that I have been offline for so long, but the net connection we are currently using is up ...then it's down...then it's up ....then it's down. Which I mean it is down more than it is up :o(.
I so want a dedicated line, but we still owe $129 and some change on our old bill that my hubby refuses to pay. It would be so lovely if I could open our mailbox one of these days and have a gifted check to pay for our bill so we could get hooked back up again. But as of now, it is just wishful dreaming and right at the time I so want to get professional with my blog and non-profit. Just another mountain standing in my way.
Lord, help me overcome this obstacle in my way, please. You are my provider Jehovah Jireh. Thank you for meeting this huge need of ours. I Thank you and praise your Holy Name and i ask this in Jesus Precious, Precious Name, Amen. Now who will stand in agreement with me?
I have been using my down time to work on WIP's and I actually finished two of them last night!
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| Live...Laugh...Love |
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| Glittered hearts |
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| Paint Chip Hearts |
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| Believe... |
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| Chronic Illness Butterfly - I chose Blue to represent +Chronic Illness as I suffer with several Chronic Illnesses. |
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| Courage, Inspiration, Love - I chose Red to help me gain Courage, To give me Inspiration while Crafting, And to remind me that the greatest of all is Love. |
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| All Things are Possible.... |
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| The beginning of Faith is just to simply Believe |
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| Live, Laugh, Love finished |
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| Believe Finished |
The paper flower was made by me out of a coffee filter that I had dyed.
The streaks you see on Believe is just where I took my ink pad and ran it around the outside edges of the canvas then I just held it even with the canvas and rubbed it up and down the canvas.
FYI: The three colors you see on my canvasses are the colors I am going to use on my Major project.....A Free standing Bathroom Cabinet. I am so excited to do it but I resent the work it takes to just be able to paint it...ughhhh! But it will totally be worth it when I am finished I do believe :o)
Until Next Time,
Karen
Monday, May 5, 2014
I have discovered that Google+ is Evil on the blogger Personal Blogs.
Just a quick note to let my Followers know that I have (If I did it right) Removed Google+ Comments so that all can post here instead of having to sign up for Google+ first.
Very Painful Vacation & A New Diagnosis
I know I was gone for a long time....Want to guess where I have been?
I was admitted to the local hospital after an Emergency Trip to the ER.
I spent three long days and 2 even longer nights in the hospital.
Short story is that I ended up having a really nasty infection, tons of longstanding inflammation throughout my entire body and a unsuspected abscess growing in my colon. I honestly did not even know I had anything until the Colonoscopy procedure on the very painful last turn but I went on home and scrubbed my toilet and at 6:30 a.m. the very next morning I had a Temperature of 100.7. I was able to get it back down until after my nurse called me back and said straight to ER with you do not pass Go. Then once I had been in ER for a few hours it spiked again to 100.3.
It seems the Colon Scope had struck my Abscess on the last turn back out and that is what triggered everything into motion..
My new very much unwanted Diagnosis is Ulcerative Colitis. Here is a good site to learn more about this little nasty disease http://digestive.niddk.nih.gov/ddiseases/pubs/colitis/
I am still very weak so I am off for now but wanted to keep you all updated.
Until Next Time,
Karen
I was admitted to the local hospital after an Emergency Trip to the ER.
I spent three long days and 2 even longer nights in the hospital.
Short story is that I ended up having a really nasty infection, tons of longstanding inflammation throughout my entire body and a unsuspected abscess growing in my colon. I honestly did not even know I had anything until the Colonoscopy procedure on the very painful last turn but I went on home and scrubbed my toilet and at 6:30 a.m. the very next morning I had a Temperature of 100.7. I was able to get it back down until after my nurse called me back and said straight to ER with you do not pass Go. Then once I had been in ER for a few hours it spiked again to 100.3.
It seems the Colon Scope had struck my Abscess on the last turn back out and that is what triggered everything into motion..
My new very much unwanted Diagnosis is Ulcerative Colitis. Here is a good site to learn more about this little nasty disease http://digestive.niddk.nih.gov/ddiseases/pubs/colitis/
I am still very weak so I am off for now but wanted to keep you all updated.
Until Next Time,
Karen
Sunday, April 27, 2014
The "Real" Me Getting Very Real with My Followers.....
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| The Real Me Karen M. Roth at Christmas 2013 |
I felt so rejected, unloved, and unwanted {not including the fact I wanted to see my father before he dies and to see my brother who I am have not seen since 2007} that I tried to kill myself.
All because no one truly is interested in my Life's journey, the pain, suffering, the major losses in my life....My Story, yet I listen to other peoples stories completely before I form an opinion of them.
I am only telling you now just so you will know what has happened to me all this time.
I do have happier Craft related posts to make, but right now my health has taken a serious toll on me and I am so weakened that I can barely make it from my bedroom to my desk. Plus, prepping for my Colonoscopy. Which is the 30th.
The Special Adrenal Gland Scan just revealed a Benign Fatty Tumor on my left Adrenal Gland which still is not telling them what is truly wrong with me. Other than a possibility of it being Cushing's Syndrome or Poly Cystic Ovarian Syndrome (PCOS) but the Gyn is not convinced that PCOS is the problem. I am scheduled for removal of the Mirena to see if that will fix my problems.
I just know that I am feeling weaker by the day and I have the most awful feeling in my lower legs and feet that never stops. My vision has been adversely affected. I am now also using Fentanyl patches and my pain is still above that.
Well, that is it for now
Until Next Time,
Karen
P.S. Does anyone even care about me at all?
Monday, March 17, 2014
Missing in Action, Update and Special Request......
So Sorry I have not posted anything in so long but I ended up in the Emergency Room the last week.
May be TMI, but you need to know it all to semi understand the level of pain I have been dealing with for the past two weeks. The first four days I did not use my Prednisone thinking that resting and icing would get it back under control, Major Ouch, bad move do not copy me please!
But anyway here we go,
The ER visit revealed that I had Internal Hemorrhoids. Ouch # 1. In this case they are genetic not from straining.
My Two part Pelvic ultrasound found "Small Follicles" on both ovaries and during the past two weeks they have been taking turns 'popping'. Any Lady who has had this will understand this pain. Ouch #2.
Then I ended up with a severe AS (Ankylosing Spondylitis) flareup in my lower spine. Ouch #3. I am currently on Prednisone for it which has been helping which is why I am able to post today :o)
Then to top it all off, I just found out I also have Sensorineural Hearing Loss. 74% loss in my Left ear and 65% loss in my right ear. They want me to get a pair of Hearing Aids valued at $1900.00. There is no way I can do this and I have asked family for the help, but have not heard back so if anyone has received them through the Medicaid Program please chat at me please! All the hearing loss due to a stupid neighbor girl who lit a Ladyfinger Firecracker and stupidly kept holding it in her fingers even though I kept telling her to throw it down . However, She did suffer a consequence, lost part of her thumb. I am a bit angry about it, but I am choosing to forgive her.
I saw my doctor today and I am asking for the same doctor that put my IUD in as I do believe that I have had PCOS (Poly Cystic Ovarian Syndrome) all this time and the Mirena IUD has made it worse. Ouch #4. If any other lady has this, please, chat at me. I am curious to understand the PCOS Diet and which medication is the best one. On this note, I am scheduled for a Contrast CAT Scan to make sure there are no masses that Dr. Longo needs to know about.
My Pulse rate today was 100. my blood pressure was 104/72 and I have lost from 155 down to 147 without trying to lose weight. I am starting to get a bit worried here as my heartbeat has slowed down.
I am also trying to get the money for a plane ticket back home. I ended up being scammed By EZ Cash Advance and had to close my account and open a new one. I will try to get my link for Donations fixed later this evening if not , then it will be tomorrow morning. I am so sorry about the mess right now.
So please pray for me.
Until Next Time,
Karen
May be TMI, but you need to know it all to semi understand the level of pain I have been dealing with for the past two weeks. The first four days I did not use my Prednisone thinking that resting and icing would get it back under control, Major Ouch, bad move do not copy me please!
But anyway here we go,
The ER visit revealed that I had Internal Hemorrhoids. Ouch # 1. In this case they are genetic not from straining.
My Two part Pelvic ultrasound found "Small Follicles" on both ovaries and during the past two weeks they have been taking turns 'popping'. Any Lady who has had this will understand this pain. Ouch #2.
Then I ended up with a severe AS (Ankylosing Spondylitis) flareup in my lower spine. Ouch #3. I am currently on Prednisone for it which has been helping which is why I am able to post today :o)
Then to top it all off, I just found out I also have Sensorineural Hearing Loss. 74% loss in my Left ear and 65% loss in my right ear. They want me to get a pair of Hearing Aids valued at $1900.00. There is no way I can do this and I have asked family for the help, but have not heard back so if anyone has received them through the Medicaid Program please chat at me please! All the hearing loss due to a stupid neighbor girl who lit a Ladyfinger Firecracker and stupidly kept holding it in her fingers even though I kept telling her to throw it down . However, She did suffer a consequence, lost part of her thumb. I am a bit angry about it, but I am choosing to forgive her.
I saw my doctor today and I am asking for the same doctor that put my IUD in as I do believe that I have had PCOS (Poly Cystic Ovarian Syndrome) all this time and the Mirena IUD has made it worse. Ouch #4. If any other lady has this, please, chat at me. I am curious to understand the PCOS Diet and which medication is the best one. On this note, I am scheduled for a Contrast CAT Scan to make sure there are no masses that Dr. Longo needs to know about.
My Pulse rate today was 100. my blood pressure was 104/72 and I have lost from 155 down to 147 without trying to lose weight. I am starting to get a bit worried here as my heartbeat has slowed down.
I am also trying to get the money for a plane ticket back home. I ended up being scammed By EZ Cash Advance and had to close my account and open a new one. I will try to get my link for Donations fixed later this evening if not , then it will be tomorrow morning. I am so sorry about the mess right now.
So please pray for me.
Until Next Time,
Karen
Sunday, March 2, 2014
Trying to Drown My Sorrow With Crafts
It has been very hard for me to be stuck in the western part of the United States while my family is in the Midwest. Especially knowing that my family truly needs me and not having the money to get a plane ticket to fly back home to help out.
So I have been drowning my sorrow in a few crafts.
I am going to finish my sweater necklace I am making. I am so excited about it as it is my own design, a OOAK....(One of a Kind).
So I have been drowning my sorrow in a few crafts.
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| I made this out of 11"x 17" paper (Legal). I folded it in half then I used needle and thread to bind it. I found a pretty piece of scrapbooking papers that I had gotten at Target and pieced the pieces together. Then used fancy scissors to detail it for the tags I used my new Fiskars Lace 3 way punch ( I love it!! ). Then I put some good old Elmers on the spine and wrapped the paper I had pieced together around the legal paper and clamped it down with 6 mini binder clips. |
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| Just a different perspective of the notebook I made. |
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| Me and My Ideas :o) |
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| The Butterfly and pearl wreath I had previously posted before I had finished it. It is now welcoming Spring and it will be used again for our Vow Renewal. |
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| This is the back of my Encouragement File I put together after reading +Joel Osteen's "Every Day a Friday" It is an awesome book and I highly recommend it ! |
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| This is the bottom part of the front. |
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| Aren't the Birdy and the butterfly just so sweet? |
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| I forgot to use the Macro button when I took this but it shows the two Martha Stewart Heart punches I had previously won on EBAY. I LOVE EBAY so much that it is the way I have been gathering up everything for our Vow Renewal. |
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| This is the front part of the lid to my case. I tried to capture the two clear beads I used on the elastic you wrap around the envelope. |
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| I tried to get the birdy up close so you can make out what the stamp says inside the birdy itself. |
I am going to finish my sweater necklace I am making. I am so excited about it as it is my own design, a OOAK....(One of a Kind).
I have also made an Exercise Binder to help keep me motivated to not only exercise, but to eat healthier, to help me understand my illnesses better and how I can manage some of the symptoms. I still need to set up the time I want to do my exercises every day and I am going to change the exercises up so that I am not doing the same things day after day except for the stretching. Not sure when I will start, but I will let ya'll know when I do. My goal is to be able to walk down to the end of our field approximately a 1/4 mile without having to stop and rest every few steps for 20 minutes. I really want to walk down the aisle on my own two feet , arm and arm with my dear sweet husband Ben. It is going to take a bit as currently I am on a walker and a cane. Barely able to walk to the mailbox and to the front office at the clubhouse. :o( So please pray for me and wish me well in my adventure to learn to walk unaided again. My most important dream it is be able to dance with my husband on the eve of our Vow Renewal. I want to waltz to Beethoven and Bach. A true Victorian Romance *Swoons*
Woo me , My Darlin'. You have all of me, heart, body, mind and soul. I have eyes only for you. None other will do, only you for me, My One True Love. Heart and Soul you are the piece that makes me whole.
Until in Heaven we should meet, Only you make my heart beat. I shall profess my love for thee both near and far. {©2014 Karen M. Roth "Profession of Love"}
"Oh, How I love thee, Let me count the ways...." { Elizabeth Barrett Browning}
Until Next Time,
Karen
Woo me , My Darlin'. You have all of me, heart, body, mind and soul. I have eyes only for you. None other will do, only you for me, My One True Love. Heart and Soul you are the piece that makes me whole.
Until in Heaven we should meet, Only you make my heart beat. I shall profess my love for thee both near and far. {©2014 Karen M. Roth "Profession of Love"}
"Oh, How I love thee, Let me count the ways...." { Elizabeth Barrett Browning}
Until Next Time,
Karen
Wednesday, February 26, 2014
Less is More... More of Less of Me.
Getting Real:
They are doing an ultrasound on my Gall bladder as it is failing. Checking my heart as it has slowed too much. They still have not figured out the reason for my dizziness that is so severe that I am not even able to walk.. My Potassium level is too low 2.5 and the doctor cannot figure out why it keeps dropping so low or what is even causing it.
My Doctor told me and my husband that I will never ever be able to work again period. But yet I am still trying to do what I am able to do to help myself out.
Positivity is getting me or you nowhere. I am dying, there is no light way to put it. My father is dying and my mother is in very ill health herself and unable to care for my father. I just wanted to spend some time with my family before I do die.
I tried being open and honest about my dire situation, but it seems to have backfired on me instead and now I am being looked upon as a fake and a scam artist. Which could not be farther from the truth.
I am about to the point of just giving up on living, period, just because the people around me and in my life are so shortsighted that they cannot see past their own noses to see another's suffering and pain, and to be a stepping block instead of a stumbling block. I have been hindered enough. I just need help.
When did the world grow so selfish and uncaring about their neighbors? Their friends, their loved ones?
What happened to "Love your neighbor as yourself." Is that not the only command that Jesus Christ himself gave to us? Why is it so hard for people to just love on people? Folks, keep your eyes on Jesus as Jesus is the true form of what Love truly is. Often times it just boils down to a choice, your choice.
So who are you going to let win in this battle of mine, Satan or God? Do you not want to be known as the warrior who helped me out when I was completely down on my luck and getting sand kicked in my eyes?
I know the answer and it is because hurting people hurt others. I am just tired of being hurt because people are too afraid to trust. When you are too afraid to trust it is because you do not realize just how awesome your God is.
I know that God will get me there regardless of how He does it. It is just that I thought that maybe my family and friends loved me enough to want to be part of the God-sized plan to get me back home.
They are doing an ultrasound on my Gall bladder as it is failing. Checking my heart as it has slowed too much. They still have not figured out the reason for my dizziness that is so severe that I am not even able to walk.. My Potassium level is too low 2.5 and the doctor cannot figure out why it keeps dropping so low or what is even causing it.
My Doctor told me and my husband that I will never ever be able to work again period. But yet I am still trying to do what I am able to do to help myself out.
Positivity is getting me or you nowhere. I am dying, there is no light way to put it. My father is dying and my mother is in very ill health herself and unable to care for my father. I just wanted to spend some time with my family before I do die.
I tried being open and honest about my dire situation, but it seems to have backfired on me instead and now I am being looked upon as a fake and a scam artist. Which could not be farther from the truth.
I am about to the point of just giving up on living, period, just because the people around me and in my life are so shortsighted that they cannot see past their own noses to see another's suffering and pain, and to be a stepping block instead of a stumbling block. I have been hindered enough. I just need help.
When did the world grow so selfish and uncaring about their neighbors? Their friends, their loved ones?
What happened to "Love your neighbor as yourself." Is that not the only command that Jesus Christ himself gave to us? Why is it so hard for people to just love on people? Folks, keep your eyes on Jesus as Jesus is the true form of what Love truly is. Often times it just boils down to a choice, your choice.
So who are you going to let win in this battle of mine, Satan or God? Do you not want to be known as the warrior who helped me out when I was completely down on my luck and getting sand kicked in my eyes?
I know the answer and it is because hurting people hurt others. I am just tired of being hurt because people are too afraid to trust. When you are too afraid to trust it is because you do not realize just how awesome your God is.
I know that God will get me there regardless of how He does it. It is just that I thought that maybe my family and friends loved me enough to want to be part of the God-sized plan to get me back home.
Thursday, February 20, 2014
Please Help Me Out.....Help me get back home
Please will you please donate to my plane ticket fund to help me get back to my parents?
I have not seen my parents, nor have I spoken to them in 10 long years due to my mother's stubborn pride and unwillingness to forgive me. It was they who disowned me, not the other way around, Now when they need me the most I want to be there for them but I cannot be due to my Ankylosing Spondylitis and possible Cancer zapping us of all needed funds. My hubby and I only live on my hubby's SSI Benefits each month.
Please help me, please. I am not some spammer who wants to scam you all. I am a desperate wife and daughter who truly wants to help her parents in the short time she has left. In fact, just this morning I spoke with the lady from the Assisted Living place that has Memory Care because I want to try and keep my parents together. I also asked her to visit my folks to let them know that I am only trying to help from a very long distance away.....I live in Washington and my parents live in Kansas. This is utter torture for me! I want to be there for them and to show them that I do love them and always have. I also want to be able to visit my only brother who happens to be in prison.
Please help me however you are able to whether it is with a donation of $ 1.00 or a $100.00.
***UPDATE***
I now have $250.00 in my plane ticket fund thanks to my brother, which was not easy for him to send as he is in prison and gets paid so little on his job. So Bro, here's a shout out to you I love you and Miss you bunches and I really hope to see you soon {{{hugz}}}!
I would have had a loan of $5000, but it turned out to be a scam. Boy, do I ever feel the fool.
I just really want to get back home, please, won't you consider even a $5.00 donation?
*****Update*****
I have not seen my parents, nor have I spoken to them in 10 long years due to my mother's stubborn pride and unwillingness to forgive me. It was they who disowned me, not the other way around, Now when they need me the most I want to be there for them but I cannot be due to my Ankylosing Spondylitis and possible Cancer zapping us of all needed funds. My hubby and I only live on my hubby's SSI Benefits each month.
Please help me, please. I am not some spammer who wants to scam you all. I am a desperate wife and daughter who truly wants to help her parents in the short time she has left. In fact, just this morning I spoke with the lady from the Assisted Living place that has Memory Care because I want to try and keep my parents together. I also asked her to visit my folks to let them know that I am only trying to help from a very long distance away.....I live in Washington and my parents live in Kansas. This is utter torture for me! I want to be there for them and to show them that I do love them and always have. I also want to be able to visit my only brother who happens to be in prison.
Please help me however you are able to whether it is with a donation of $ 1.00 or a $100.00.
***UPDATE***
I now have $250.00 in my plane ticket fund thanks to my brother, which was not easy for him to send as he is in prison and gets paid so little on his job. So Bro, here's a shout out to you I love you and Miss you bunches and I really hope to see you soon {{{hugz}}}!
I would have had a loan of $5000, but it turned out to be a scam. Boy, do I ever feel the fool.
I just really want to get back home, please, won't you consider even a $5.00 donation?
For $5.00 I will make and print out some pretty Stationery and my Daily Schedule.
For $10.00, a lacy bookmark. You choose the color, I choose the style :o)
For $25.00. I will throw in a hand crocheted Cross with a brightly painted wooden frame
For $35.00 I will make a scarf of your choosing. I will show the patterns to choose from in a blog post.
For $50.00 I will make an heirloom Beaded Christmas Ornament.
For $100.00 I will make an Heirloom Bedspread.
*****Update*****
Sunday, February 16, 2014
Gentle Whispers of Love is Born... But First an Urgent Request.....
Folks,
I have officially opened my Store, but it will be exactly one month and a half before I am able to add any of my items to the storefront due to personal reasons for which I am imploring your help....
I just received a call from my brother today letting me know that my Father is not doing well at all. It is because he has Alzheimer's. He has gotten really bad. I really want to fly back for a month to spend time with my parents and my brother. I also want to mend broken fences with my mother.
But this presents a huge problem.... I am flat broke, someone has a lien on my van and my health has tapped us for every penny that we are worth so I am imploring of my followers, friends, family to donate to my plane ticket fund....The total I need is $ 500.00 I can get the one month package for less but I want to buy myself something before I have to say goodbye to my parents for the rest of my life as my health is just as bad as theirs is.
I want to purchase my ticket for April 1, 2014 -May 4, 2014 I want to get there before my Dad's birthday.
Will you please help me out? I would be forever grateful.
Here is my button -
I have officially opened my Store, but it will be exactly one month and a half before I am able to add any of my items to the storefront due to personal reasons for which I am imploring your help....
I just received a call from my brother today letting me know that my Father is not doing well at all. It is because he has Alzheimer's. He has gotten really bad. I really want to fly back for a month to spend time with my parents and my brother. I also want to mend broken fences with my mother.
But this presents a huge problem.... I am flat broke, someone has a lien on my van and my health has tapped us for every penny that we are worth so I am imploring of my followers, friends, family to donate to my plane ticket fund....The total I need is $ 500.00 I can get the one month package for less but I want to buy myself something before I have to say goodbye to my parents for the rest of my life as my health is just as bad as theirs is.
I want to purchase my ticket for April 1, 2014 -May 4, 2014 I want to get there before my Dad's birthday.
Will you please help me out? I would be forever grateful.
Here is my button -
Friday, February 14, 2014
Not sure if I should even continue blogging....
Folks,
I'll be honest with you about a little event that happened between last night and this morning.....
I reached out to what I thought was going to be a helpful blogger to do a Guest Post for me for while I am trying to get my physical pain back under control. Instead of responding to me directly this person took what I had asked in complete innocence not even dreaming that this person would take what I had said to them about "making it worth their while" (ie. Meaning a handmade necklace and earring set as a surprise for helping me out while I am completely down on my luck due to health turning for the worse) the completely the wrong way. They thought it was me asking for a a post for money....Can you even believe that? Did they help me out, oh yeah, by making me a complete laughing stock of the whole world wide web. They took my comment asking for help and posted it on their blog breaking it down as to why they would not help me and actually laughing at me about it. Did they not realize that I am a follower ( make that Ex-follower) of their blog and that I would recognize my own writing?! That really hurt....deeply....I had asked for help and this is how they treated me *hangs head in defeat*
I realize I am not the established blogger that they are although I have been giving all I have into my blog but my health going to pots... {You know, the molestation, the rapes, the pregnancies and the loss of my children plus a miscarriage and my parents disowning me, the domestic violence by my ex-husband that almost killed me, the truck wreck that did kill me but God brought me back to life, the being shot, my only brother being in prison for life without parole}, but did they have to be so cold-hearted about it? All I can say is that I hope they enjoyed tearing me completely down to nothing but shattered pieces....Thanks for your kind and generous help.
However, I did apologize publicly on their blog and this decision has been haunting me all day today which is the day I should have been enjoying my sweet developmentally disabled husband.
There may not be a next time,
Karen
I'll be honest with you about a little event that happened between last night and this morning.....
I reached out to what I thought was going to be a helpful blogger to do a Guest Post for me for while I am trying to get my physical pain back under control. Instead of responding to me directly this person took what I had asked in complete innocence not even dreaming that this person would take what I had said to them about "making it worth their while" (ie. Meaning a handmade necklace and earring set as a surprise for helping me out while I am completely down on my luck due to health turning for the worse) the completely the wrong way. They thought it was me asking for a a post for money....Can you even believe that? Did they help me out, oh yeah, by making me a complete laughing stock of the whole world wide web. They took my comment asking for help and posted it on their blog breaking it down as to why they would not help me and actually laughing at me about it. Did they not realize that I am a follower ( make that Ex-follower) of their blog and that I would recognize my own writing?! That really hurt....deeply....I had asked for help and this is how they treated me *hangs head in defeat*
I realize I am not the established blogger that they are although I have been giving all I have into my blog but my health going to pots... {You know, the molestation, the rapes, the pregnancies and the loss of my children plus a miscarriage and my parents disowning me, the domestic violence by my ex-husband that almost killed me, the truck wreck that did kill me but God brought me back to life, the being shot, my only brother being in prison for life without parole}, but did they have to be so cold-hearted about it? All I can say is that I hope they enjoyed tearing me completely down to nothing but shattered pieces....Thanks for your kind and generous help.
However, I did apologize publicly on their blog and this decision has been haunting me all day today which is the day I should have been enjoying my sweet developmentally disabled husband.
There may not be a next time,
Karen
Wednesday, February 12, 2014
Please Help My New Friend.....Organized Chaos
Come on, Ya'll please give my new friend a hand up on her Cash Giveaway!
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— Karen Roth (@ffpaws) February 13, 2014
Betcha Cannot Guess.....
Betcha Cannot guess what I am in the process of doing?
Are ya guessing yet :o)
Cleaning my house...... trying to
Doing my nails...... bought two new colors :o)
Organizing my embroidery floss...... Already done.....
Finally posting a blog post? Well, sort of :o)
Have I made ya crazy yet? O.0
Well, what do you guess I am going to do next?
***Here's my Poll***
1. Getting a new hairdo
2. Losing weight
3. Organizing my crafts
4. Being More Positive with my outlook on things happening to me.
5. Going back to school for Graphics Design
6. Buying myself a new purse and wallet in a happier color
7. Biting the bullet and starting to give myself my Humira Injections every other week for the rest of my life in a very relaxed peaceful setting with my favorite music playing.
8. Beading a butterfly necklace for myself, Of course ^.^
9. Making a Shabby Chic Christmas Tree Skirt
10. Eat my favorite comfort food Kraft Mac~n~cheese with hamburger and peas
I bet you one of a kind handmade notebook if you can guess which of these I am for certain going to do or may have done already ^.^
Leave your guesses in the comments below, please :o)
Urgent Prayer Request:
Just found out that my 86 year old Father-in-law Pa Bear, er, excuse me, Don Roth is in the hospital and has been in there for 6 days. It started out as a Bladder Infection and it has turned for the worse. He was supposed to have been transferred to a hospital in Yakima for Rehab. As soon as I can get my hubby awake and dressed we are on our way to see him in CCU.
He has had so much happen to him in such a short time. First he had open heart surgery to try a pig valve but it failed. Then he got a pacemaker put in. Then last year he had brain surgery to remove an 80ml blood clot. Then he had a foot of his intestine removed.
This is not the first Bladder infection he has had. But from what they say he is not doing well at all.
I know that at this point it seems that he has just given up on living. He has battled so hard.
I would love to see his suffering to end peacefully. There are mixed feelings in the family right now. This is especially hard on my mother-in-law Ma Bear, er, excuse me Dot Roth as she is still trying to adjust to living on her own in the next town over.
So could you please pray for us.
Just found out that my 86 year old Father-in-law Pa Bear, er, excuse me, Don Roth is in the hospital and has been in there for 6 days. It started out as a Bladder Infection and it has turned for the worse. He was supposed to have been transferred to a hospital in Yakima for Rehab. As soon as I can get my hubby awake and dressed we are on our way to see him in CCU.
He has had so much happen to him in such a short time. First he had open heart surgery to try a pig valve but it failed. Then he got a pacemaker put in. Then last year he had brain surgery to remove an 80ml blood clot. Then he had a foot of his intestine removed.
This is not the first Bladder infection he has had. But from what they say he is not doing well at all.
I know that at this point it seems that he has just given up on living. He has battled so hard.
I would love to see his suffering to end peacefully. There are mixed feelings in the family right now. This is especially hard on my mother-in-law Ma Bear, er, excuse me Dot Roth as she is still trying to adjust to living on her own in the next town over.
So could you please pray for us.
Saturday, February 1, 2014
On to Happy Thoughts....
Hello Friends,
I am trying to help myself think more positive, but for me it is so hard to do on my own so I have joined Happify. Will ya'll join me over there and become my real time friends? I could really use it now. I could really use encouragement. Maybe some happy colored notebooks or altered journals with a written notes by you in them on the first page?
If you want to participate in my Happifying journey and giving me some real time encouragement just email me at Karen Roth Contact me, please and I will email you my address so ya'll can write me. I understand that many of ya'll live very busy lives, but can you please spare one moment to write to me?
Now on to something that makes my happiness factor go way up, I just wish I could have these things in real life,lol
Shabby Chicness
Just a shout out to +roses-and-teacups you do amazing work :o) Love everything!
Speaking of which, rush your little selves over to my Blenpal, Angie Tower who is the most awesome gourd artist! I so want here Windsor blue purse, just my color and design, I have a crush + on it.
Regional Renown Gourd Artist, Angie Tower
Until Next Time,
Karen
I am trying to help myself think more positive, but for me it is so hard to do on my own so I have joined Happify. Will ya'll join me over there and become my real time friends? I could really use it now. I could really use encouragement. Maybe some happy colored notebooks or altered journals with a written notes by you in them on the first page?
If you want to participate in my Happifying journey and giving me some real time encouragement just email me at Karen Roth Contact me, please and I will email you my address so ya'll can write me. I understand that many of ya'll live very busy lives, but can you please spare one moment to write to me?
Now on to something that makes my happiness factor go way up, I just wish I could have these things in real life,lol
Shabby Chicness
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| Roses and Teacups There is nothing sweeter than a bunch of adorable teddies. |
Just a shout out to +roses-and-teacups you do amazing work :o) Love everything!
Speaking of which, rush your little selves over to my Blenpal, Angie Tower who is the most awesome gourd artist! I so want here Windsor blue purse, just my color and design, I have a crush + on it.
Regional Renown Gourd Artist, Angie Tower
Until Next Time,
Karen
What a couple of weeks....
Well, I am so sorry I have not been posting lately but I have had doctor appointment after appointment and that is not even mentioning just how ill I have been as of late.
Meanwhile, I am having a Mammogram and an ultrasound due to a lump and a swelling I have on the right side just below my breast. It hurts like a dickens and I am having trouble getting comfy in bed now because of it. It seems to be right on the bottom rib. I have been so drained of energy, stamina, and pain has zapped all my physical strength.
So ya'll, can I ask for ya'll to pray for me. We can really use it since I have run out of my Vitamin D3 and we cannot afford to get it being without it has left me with blind spots in my left eye and a horrid buzzing that started in my right foot and is slowly creeping up my legs each time I have to go without my D3 and I am out of my eye drops as well. Being without the D3 has left me terribly grumpy and I have been fighting with my husband but I think a big portion of my anger is stemming from my uncontrolled ADD.
I broke down and wept today missing my family terribly since they rejected me and took my daughter and son away from me when I was only trying to do the right thing. I wept for my children who I love so dearly even though they chose to listen to the lies my mother had told them.. I wept for missing my parents even though they have disowned me, because no matter how much they neglected my needs they are still my parents and I do love them dearly, it is just that they have taken their eyes off of Jesus and that they have never dealt with their own issues before having children. In fact, the day I was born my father was busy getting drunk at the GI Club on the base where I was born. My mother went through it all alone, yet she stayed with him for reasons I cannot assume. When he was home he was a workaholic. He was a prison guard. As you may assume at this moment I did not have a very happy childhood. It was mostly full of fear when I was going to get picked up and thrown on the bed next and I dare not repeat what he had done to me but even to this day I am scared of my mother and father. It finally quit when I was 12 years of age when I finally got brave enough to pull my father's bluff down while I was in class one day. I will forever be grateful for my Friend Christina who went home and told her mother what I had said standing in the Recess Line. Thank you immensely, Christina F. You will forever be my heroine, Thank You {{{hugz}}}.
I wept for my brother , my only brother who is going to be in prison for the next 20 years. I love him dearly but I also suffered tragic losses and I weep for them every single day. I miss my niece and two nephews dearly. Especially my brother's son. His half-aunt who adopted him has refused for him to have anything to do with me just because I am my brother's sister. I did not commit the crime and believe me, I grieve every day. I miss not only them but I miss my brother, he will never be the same again. I can only pray that he will continue on the positive path he has started on but I do pray that he will at least write me back. I love him and I miss him dearly. But he is living proof of what trying to Self-Medicate yourself instead of reaching our to the help you can get can do. So I pray for all the family members of people like my brother.
So if you are reading this and you just happen to live in Hutchinson, Kansas and so happen to know my parents H.E. Jones III and J. A. B. Jones please tell them I love them dearly and I want us to come full circle with "a circle that is unbroken". Tell them I said to drop their pride and to give me a call (509) 306*9696 please? That I have only love and forgiveness for both of them. As well as open arms. I understand that both of them are just hurting people and that they need help beyond themselves. The same goes for my Children A.B. Jones and C.A. Berg.
Oh, how I long to just hold them in my arms again before I die. To be honest, I don't think I have much time left because of my health being in such poor shape, but I am trying to hold on as long as I can and I know that I will not die before God says it's time, but man is my body in a very bad way.
Please also pray that Child Support does not take our only vehicle since they now have got a lien against it. I truly need a lawyer but we cannot afford one and we need a new van so desperately as this one is on it's last wheel.
Well, I gotta run and try to get things cleaned up before the maintenance man comes to change out our shower head.
Until Next Time,
A desperate woman hanging on to her last fraying thread and losing her hope, Karen
*Good News for now*
I went to see Dr. MacDonald on the 20th and he told me that my Enchondroma is Benign for now but he wants to keep an eye on it for the next 6 months to make sure there is no growth. So I go back in 6 months to get two more MRI's to see.Meanwhile, I am having a Mammogram and an ultrasound due to a lump and a swelling I have on the right side just below my breast. It hurts like a dickens and I am having trouble getting comfy in bed now because of it. It seems to be right on the bottom rib. I have been so drained of energy, stamina, and pain has zapped all my physical strength.
So ya'll, can I ask for ya'll to pray for me. We can really use it since I have run out of my Vitamin D3 and we cannot afford to get it being without it has left me with blind spots in my left eye and a horrid buzzing that started in my right foot and is slowly creeping up my legs each time I have to go without my D3 and I am out of my eye drops as well. Being without the D3 has left me terribly grumpy and I have been fighting with my husband but I think a big portion of my anger is stemming from my uncontrolled ADD.
I broke down and wept today missing my family terribly since they rejected me and took my daughter and son away from me when I was only trying to do the right thing. I wept for my children who I love so dearly even though they chose to listen to the lies my mother had told them.. I wept for missing my parents even though they have disowned me, because no matter how much they neglected my needs they are still my parents and I do love them dearly, it is just that they have taken their eyes off of Jesus and that they have never dealt with their own issues before having children. In fact, the day I was born my father was busy getting drunk at the GI Club on the base where I was born. My mother went through it all alone, yet she stayed with him for reasons I cannot assume. When he was home he was a workaholic. He was a prison guard. As you may assume at this moment I did not have a very happy childhood. It was mostly full of fear when I was going to get picked up and thrown on the bed next and I dare not repeat what he had done to me but even to this day I am scared of my mother and father. It finally quit when I was 12 years of age when I finally got brave enough to pull my father's bluff down while I was in class one day. I will forever be grateful for my Friend Christina who went home and told her mother what I had said standing in the Recess Line. Thank you immensely, Christina F. You will forever be my heroine, Thank You {{{hugz}}}.
I wept for my brother , my only brother who is going to be in prison for the next 20 years. I love him dearly but I also suffered tragic losses and I weep for them every single day. I miss my niece and two nephews dearly. Especially my brother's son. His half-aunt who adopted him has refused for him to have anything to do with me just because I am my brother's sister. I did not commit the crime and believe me, I grieve every day. I miss not only them but I miss my brother, he will never be the same again. I can only pray that he will continue on the positive path he has started on but I do pray that he will at least write me back. I love him and I miss him dearly. But he is living proof of what trying to Self-Medicate yourself instead of reaching our to the help you can get can do. So I pray for all the family members of people like my brother.
So if you are reading this and you just happen to live in Hutchinson, Kansas and so happen to know my parents H.E. Jones III and J. A. B. Jones please tell them I love them dearly and I want us to come full circle with "a circle that is unbroken". Tell them I said to drop their pride and to give me a call (509) 306*9696 please? That I have only love and forgiveness for both of them. As well as open arms. I understand that both of them are just hurting people and that they need help beyond themselves. The same goes for my Children A.B. Jones and C.A. Berg.
Oh, how I long to just hold them in my arms again before I die. To be honest, I don't think I have much time left because of my health being in such poor shape, but I am trying to hold on as long as I can and I know that I will not die before God says it's time, but man is my body in a very bad way.
Please also pray that Child Support does not take our only vehicle since they now have got a lien against it. I truly need a lawyer but we cannot afford one and we need a new van so desperately as this one is on it's last wheel.
Well, I gotta run and try to get things cleaned up before the maintenance man comes to change out our shower head.
Until Next Time,
A desperate woman hanging on to her last fraying thread and losing her hope, Karen
Wednesday, January 22, 2014
Mouse's Tax Day Giveaway...
Here are the details:
Giveaway will run from April 1st and end at Midnight on Tax Day! It will be a cash giveaway and the winner will receive the prize through PayPal. The great part is EVEN if you are a sponsor blogger / shop owner you can still enter to win!!!
The amount of the giveaway will depend on the number of bloggers who participate in the giveaway. Of course I'm hoping for a huge turnout of support which will make the amount larger and increase the traffic to all of our blogs.
Entry links are $5 a link or you can co-host for $15 and get 4 links....
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3- entry link $15
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Fill out this FORM to enter.
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To really get things kicked off and moving in the right direction to have a BIG jackpot for one lucky winner if you sign up EARLY to be part of the giveaway as a co-host you will get FIVE links for $15. But hurry that ends at midnight on January 31st.Deadline to be part of the giveaway is March 21, 2014.
There is also a $20 cash giveaway for the person who refers the most bloggers/ store owners to be part of the giveaway. All you have to do to qualify is when someone signs up they put your name down as the person who referred them. If you would like to post this announcement on your blog you can copy and paste the HTML code HERE.
To help boost the amount of the giveaway I am adding in $50 to get it started...plus there have already been a couple sign ups so this is sure to generate TONS of traffic for your site!!
Let's Give Wild Olive Some Love Ya'll
Hello Dear Friends,
While I was out tripping around in cyber space to fill my time tonight since I am in too much pain for anything else I stumbled across the absolute cutest blog I have ever seen! Her sweet name is Wild Olive and she loves to embroider and right now is holding a contest that is only on for one more day so ya better hurry.....Run do not walk over to her and give her some big Blogher wuvings......
http://wildolive.blogspot.com/2014/01/book-review-stitched-style-blog-tour.html
I am going to be moving up in the pain med level I will soon be on Morphine. Also have an appointment to see my doctor on the 27th as I have found a lump. So keep me in your prayers. Hence the reason I have not been online much, I have just simply been in too much pain.
But anyhoo, 'nuff about me until later when I find out something concrete.
I'm off to visit with Wild Olive some more so ......
Until Next Time,
Karen
While I was out tripping around in cyber space to fill my time tonight since I am in too much pain for anything else I stumbled across the absolute cutest blog I have ever seen! Her sweet name is Wild Olive and she loves to embroider and right now is holding a contest that is only on for one more day so ya better hurry.....Run do not walk over to her and give her some big Blogher wuvings......
http://wildolive.blogspot.com/2014/01/book-review-stitched-style-blog-tour.html
I am going to be moving up in the pain med level I will soon be on Morphine. Also have an appointment to see my doctor on the 27th as I have found a lump. So keep me in your prayers. Hence the reason I have not been online much, I have just simply been in too much pain.
But anyhoo, 'nuff about me until later when I find out something concrete.
I'm off to visit with Wild Olive some more so ......
Until Next Time,
Karen
Monday, January 20, 2014
No News is Good News Right?
Hello Friends,
I still have not heard yeah or nay on me yet, but he thinks it may be benign but he does not want to say for certain until he has read my MRI's with and without contrast which will take place on Friday the 24th.
I also have to have the Holter Monitor Test on the 22nd since my heart is deciding to do cartwheels in my chest when I lay down to sleep every night and I get really short on breath as well
In other news, great news! Our Box Springs are on their way!!!!! Oh, May God Bless Ben's family sooooo much for helping us with this {{{{{BIG BEAR Hugz))) Thank You so very much :oD I cannot tell you just how much it will be easier for me to get in and out of bed and to get rid of that junked out queen sized mess will be a sweet blessing in disguise :o) I will finally be able to get into my chest of drawers and over to my bookshelves....Oh, How I have missed my books!
Speaking of which....Does anyone have any crafting books they would be willing to send me, please? 3inch 3 ring binder and sheet protectors? It would be for my printed out Crochet patterns. Just email me if ya do :o) This is a year of learning new things and to do it scared anyway. Besides getting hyper organized. Once I get to being a professional blog I want to seriously start a Craft Swap each month. We would ask every to sign up with an email and then we would start by taking the email below ours and send them the craft supplies we were done with that way there would be no waste or storage problems for anyone and everyone could come up with one project out of the supplies they were sent and we would hold a Linky Party to show off that one craft :oD So tell me what you think, ya think ya might like to do that? If so, Let me hear ya leave a comment at the end of this post :o) I would like to call it: Major Mustard's Pickle.
I have a super cute couple of projects in the works so hang on while I take pics of them so I can get them posted! They are a complete secret until I post them. Mwahahahah!
In Savings news, My health insurance has approved my Humira for the next year!!!!! Woohoo, yeah right, I know. I'm not too keen on having to give myself shots every other week for the rest of my life thanks to the good 'ol li' gene I inherited, most likely from my father so I pray that he gets himself genetically tested to find out for sure as this might very well be the reason for all the physical pain he has had. But I had better pull up my Big Girl pants and buck up.
I know my parents were hurt and angered by my leaving the way I had, but it really was best for everyone in our family that I did so. So that I could find out what had been cursing our family health for so long, now I know, I pray that they will forgive me and take me back again. This is my fervent prayer every single night. I would love nothing more than to have them present at our Vow Renewal. I do love them, but it was they who rejected me and not the other way around. I just pray that God will soften their hearts and give them a true reality of who Jesus really is.
But now that I know this information I am able to pass it onto the authorities where my children and parents live and maybe even help them even though at the present moment they all hate my guts and never want to see me again, but truly I have only a deep mother's love for both of my children and I pray that they too will forgive me for just leaving to get the help I needed and that my parents never would have been able to afford. I have wept every birthday and holiday because I miss them so, but my mother is a very stubborn woman who needs emotional help as does my father. But I pray each day for God to Shine His face down upon them and to bless them richly. I just pray that one day they will all see the truth for what it is. That alot of my behavior was just a reaction to theirs.
Anyhoo, enough of the sad story and that is not even half of it, but I have chosen to forgive them so I will not use their sins against them any longer. Just keep praying for a happier ending to my story please.
Until Next Time,
Karen
I still have not heard yeah or nay on me yet, but he thinks it may be benign but he does not want to say for certain until he has read my MRI's with and without contrast which will take place on Friday the 24th.
I also have to have the Holter Monitor Test on the 22nd since my heart is deciding to do cartwheels in my chest when I lay down to sleep every night and I get really short on breath as well
In other news, great news! Our Box Springs are on their way!!!!! Oh, May God Bless Ben's family sooooo much for helping us with this {{{{{BIG BEAR Hugz))) Thank You so very much :oD I cannot tell you just how much it will be easier for me to get in and out of bed and to get rid of that junked out queen sized mess will be a sweet blessing in disguise :o) I will finally be able to get into my chest of drawers and over to my bookshelves....Oh, How I have missed my books!
Speaking of which....Does anyone have any crafting books they would be willing to send me, please? 3inch 3 ring binder and sheet protectors? It would be for my printed out Crochet patterns. Just email me if ya do :o) This is a year of learning new things and to do it scared anyway. Besides getting hyper organized. Once I get to being a professional blog I want to seriously start a Craft Swap each month. We would ask every to sign up with an email and then we would start by taking the email below ours and send them the craft supplies we were done with that way there would be no waste or storage problems for anyone and everyone could come up with one project out of the supplies they were sent and we would hold a Linky Party to show off that one craft :oD So tell me what you think, ya think ya might like to do that? If so, Let me hear ya leave a comment at the end of this post :o) I would like to call it: Major Mustard's Pickle.
I have a super cute couple of projects in the works so hang on while I take pics of them so I can get them posted! They are a complete secret until I post them. Mwahahahah!
In Savings news, My health insurance has approved my Humira for the next year!!!!! Woohoo, yeah right, I know. I'm not too keen on having to give myself shots every other week for the rest of my life thanks to the good 'ol li' gene I inherited, most likely from my father so I pray that he gets himself genetically tested to find out for sure as this might very well be the reason for all the physical pain he has had. But I had better pull up my Big Girl pants and buck up.
I know my parents were hurt and angered by my leaving the way I had, but it really was best for everyone in our family that I did so. So that I could find out what had been cursing our family health for so long, now I know, I pray that they will forgive me and take me back again. This is my fervent prayer every single night. I would love nothing more than to have them present at our Vow Renewal. I do love them, but it was they who rejected me and not the other way around. I just pray that God will soften their hearts and give them a true reality of who Jesus really is.
But now that I know this information I am able to pass it onto the authorities where my children and parents live and maybe even help them even though at the present moment they all hate my guts and never want to see me again, but truly I have only a deep mother's love for both of my children and I pray that they too will forgive me for just leaving to get the help I needed and that my parents never would have been able to afford. I have wept every birthday and holiday because I miss them so, but my mother is a very stubborn woman who needs emotional help as does my father. But I pray each day for God to Shine His face down upon them and to bless them richly. I just pray that one day they will all see the truth for what it is. That alot of my behavior was just a reaction to theirs.
Anyhoo, enough of the sad story and that is not even half of it, but I have chosen to forgive them so I will not use their sins against them any longer. Just keep praying for a happier ending to my story please.
Until Next Time,
Karen
Sunday, January 19, 2014
Doing It Scared + Possible Prayer Answered
Hello My Dear Friends,
I have to admit something...I am scared to death of my doctor's appointment tomorrow at 2 p.m. so if I may request something special just for myself tomorrow?
Exactly at 2 p.m. PST I want everyone who knows me or of me to say a prayer for me. There is a distinct possibility that I may have more than one form of cancer. Just thinking about it scares the daylights out of me but for the past month my physical pain has increased so much in my leg and foot bones. Hubby and doctor have been denying it all this time while I have been pleading for help. My doctor has finally believed me and referred me to the Bone Specialist I am seeing tomorrow.
My Humira is to be covered by my insurance for up to one year, which is the answered prayer. At last notice they were fighting my pain patch so I still do not have it. So pray that will get worked out as well,please.
I think our prayer is just about to be answered about getting our box springs....thanks to family {{{GIANT Hugz}}}
I have determined this year to not let my fear keep me stuck in a rut so that is why I am going to start doing things even when afraid.
Until Next Time,
Karen
I have to admit something...I am scared to death of my doctor's appointment tomorrow at 2 p.m. so if I may request something special just for myself tomorrow?
Exactly at 2 p.m. PST I want everyone who knows me or of me to say a prayer for me. There is a distinct possibility that I may have more than one form of cancer. Just thinking about it scares the daylights out of me but for the past month my physical pain has increased so much in my leg and foot bones. Hubby and doctor have been denying it all this time while I have been pleading for help. My doctor has finally believed me and referred me to the Bone Specialist I am seeing tomorrow.
My Humira is to be covered by my insurance for up to one year, which is the answered prayer. At last notice they were fighting my pain patch so I still do not have it. So pray that will get worked out as well,please.
I think our prayer is just about to be answered about getting our box springs....thanks to family {{{GIANT Hugz}}}
I have determined this year to not let my fear keep me stuck in a rut so that is why I am going to start doing things even when afraid.
Until Next Time,
Karen
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