Mark Hall,This is for you....

I just found out today that my Favorite Singer of +Casting Crowns needs our prayer.....

Come Join me in Prayer

#prayingforMark Dear Father God, I am bringing Mark before you, you know his Miracle he desperately needs right now. Make it so! Amen
— Karen Roth (@ffpaws) March 9, 2015

Mark, I want to let you know that your music carried me through some of the darkest times in my life and still does today. My heart is bleeding for you and your family and I will be praying nightly until I hear that you have been healed. {{{Hugz)))

Much Love in Christ,
Karen M. Roth

No News is Good News Right?

Hello Friends,

     I still have not heard yeah or nay on me yet, but he thinks it may be benign but he does not want to say for certain until he has read my MRI's with and without contrast which will take place on Friday the 24th.

    I also have to have the Holter Monitor Test on the 22nd since my heart is deciding to do cartwheels in my chest when I lay down to sleep every night and I get really short on breath as well

     In other news, great news! Our Box Springs are on their way!!!!! Oh, May God Bless Ben's family sooooo much for helping us with this {{{{{BIG BEAR Hugz))) Thank You so very much :oD I cannot tell you just how much it will be easier for me to get in and out of bed and to get rid of that junked out queen sized mess will be a sweet blessing in disguise :o) I will finally be able to get into my chest of drawers and over to my bookshelves....Oh, How I have missed my books!

Speaking of which....Does anyone have any crafting books they would be willing to send me, please? 3inch 3 ring binder and sheet protectors? It would be for my printed out Crochet patterns.   Just email me if ya do :o) This is a year of learning new things and to do it scared anyway. Besides getting hyper organized. Once I get to being a professional blog I want to seriously start a Craft Swap each month. We would ask every to sign up with an email and then we would start by taking the email below ours and send them the craft supplies we were done with that way there would be no waste or storage problems for anyone and everyone could come up with one project out of the supplies they were sent and we would hold a Linky Party to show off that one craft :oD So tell me what you think, ya think ya might like to do that? If so, Let me hear ya leave a comment at the end of this post :o) I would like to call it: Major Mustard's Pickle.

     I have a super cute couple of projects in the works so hang on while I take pics of them so I can get them posted!  They are a complete secret until I post them. Mwahahahah!

     In Savings news, My health insurance has approved my Humira for the next year!!!!! Woohoo, yeah right, I know. I'm not too keen on having to give myself shots every other week for the rest of my life thanks to the good 'ol li' gene I inherited, most likely from my father so I pray that he gets himself genetically tested to find out for sure as this might very well be the reason for all the physical pain he has had. But I had better pull up my Big Girl pants and buck up.

     I know my parents were hurt and angered by my leaving the way I had, but it really was best for everyone in our family that I did so. So that  I could find out what had been cursing our family health for so long, now I know, I pray that they will forgive me and take me back again.  This is my fervent prayer every single night. I would love nothing more than to have them present at our Vow Renewal.   I do love them, but it was they who rejected me and not the other way around. I just pray that God will soften their hearts and give them a true reality of who Jesus really is.
     But now that I know this information I am able to pass it onto the authorities where my children and parents live and maybe even help them even though at the present moment they all hate my guts and never want to see me again, but truly I have only a deep mother's love for both of my children and I pray that they too will forgive me for just leaving to get the help I needed and that my parents never would have been able to afford. I have wept every birthday and holiday because I miss them so, but my mother is a very stubborn woman who needs emotional help as does my father. But I pray each day for God to Shine His face down upon them and to bless them richly. I just pray that one day they will all see the truth for what it is. That alot of my behavior was just a reaction to theirs.

  Anyhoo, enough of the sad story and that is not even half of it, but I have chosen to forgive them so I will not use their sins against them any longer. Just keep praying for a happier ending to my story please.

Until Next Time,
Karen

My Prayers and Yours Are slowly Being Answered......

Hey there, My Friends,

Just a quick post before the hubby takes over the bandwidth, lol

My Doctor called this morning and while she is not ready to put me on Fenatanyl (?sp.) patch, she is ready to bump me up to maybe the Lidocaine Patch provided that my new insurance will cover it. I have an appointment to discuss this with her the 17th. So pray really hard for me, please {{{hugz}}}

I have changed the look of my blog in hopes of looking a bit more professional until the someday I can afford to get my own setup.

I am also trying to talk our family into helping me get my glasses since my insurance will only pay for the eye exam.

I have finally broken down and ordered myself a nice set of  15 cubby hole unit for my crafts and it should be here the 17th as well. I am super stoked, I love to be organized! It improves so much including my emotional well-being.  I am setting my blog organization and time management up. I will be working on it some more.

Oh, how I long to be able to hold my own Giveaways.....It will come, just do not know when, but I will think of something even if at first it is nothing more than some of my own handmade greeting cards or maybe a needle book :o).

You guys and gals are the bestest! Love you all so much {{{hugz}}}

Well, I better get this posted so ....

Until Next Time,
Karen

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Is Your Computer Protected.....

Hello Bloggy Friends,

In all seriousness, is your computer protected from the the "New Hackers on the Block 2014"?

I personally use +Avast Internet Security. I do not usually back a product, but this baby is one that I swear by and I back it 300%.

I have had many backdoor attempts from seemingly innocent beautiful pictures and +Avast has caught every single one. So I encourage you to get +Avast and scan every file before you open it.

The crooks are getting smarter by the day and most of them are really slick and might even be your best friend without you even knowing that they are living a double life. Most hackers are very intelligent and very bored and looking for excitement in their lives so....

Get +Avast and stop them cold in their tracks and bite the bug before it finds you!

A Little Christmas Dreaming........A Mournful Remembering of a Christmas Past....

A Little Christmas Dreaming

"Peace I give to you,
My Peace I give to you;
Not as the world giveth,
Give I unto you.
Let not your heart
 Be troubled, Neither
 Let it be afraid."
John 14:27

As I sit here this night my first "real" night back to my computer since my power supply died in the middle of the night while I was sleeping fitfully, I am dreaming of a fresh Shabby Chic Victorian Christmas decorations and I must say that I have found a ton of inspiration on Hand Beaded Ornaments Which I am dying to start making. 

I bought small emerald green and pearl colored ornaments for a $1.99 each at my Bi-Mart right next door to me for my kitchen/dining tree I found in the dumpster. Let's get it straight, I am no dumpster diver but if something is on top where I can reach or {as we do here} is sitting on the ground beside the dumpster that no one wants any longer then I get it if I like it....Are we straight now :o)?  I snagged a $385.00 Italy Made Tapestry of the "Last Supper" that way ^.^. I am so longing to get it mounted professionally so it can hang in my Living Room. But cannot afford it.

I also have this Pinterest Board : Christmas

Christmas holds bittersweet memories for me, but I still love the spirit of the season with Christ being the Reason for the wonderful season we do enjoy. I had a family tragedy happen on Christmas of 2008.{It was horrid that is all I will say, if you truly want to know what happened just email me and I will answer you.  I am finding that even though I have no trouble talking about it that most folks are too stunned or feel too awkward about it to talk. But I will say that God is bringing good from it.  My broken heart still feels for the other family involved. I still pray for comfort and peace for them all nightly. Everyone involved suffered a great costly loss. I think I have suffered just as hard as the others involved, but it has struck a deep thread within my soul that just refuses to let it go. }

Christmas is still my favorite holiday and always will be but not without haunting memories ever so vivid. But with God's help I am able to still move forward although not perfectly. I am ever so grateful for God's Love and Grace. So with this being said I have made a vow to start making things that will outlast my life and leave a legacy behind for my children if they should forgive me and want it.. Life is too precious to waste a moment! 

Sorry For the Lack of My Presence Online Lately

I want to apologize to those who do follow me for my lack of presence lately. I have really been in a lot of physical pain.

I have also received the worst medical report from my doctor and well,  to be completely honest, I have been grieving the loss of my life as others continue to move forward as though my life does not or has never existed. But even though I feel this way, I want to respond as God would have me to respond..

While it is true that I have not had any encouragement for most of my life in any area of my life, I realize that humans can never be what I need them to be because we live in a Fallen World still ruled by the enemy. So I will be my own Encourager.

But I can come right out and ask for what we need, and then trust all the consequences to God.

1. I need handwritten encouragement in the form of cards as I am trying to build myself an Encouragement file.

2. I need those who are able in our lives to come forward and to meet the needs we have that they are able to meet.
          1. A Comfortable bed. Maybe you cannot do this for us but you may know someone who can. So just getting the word out would help us.
          2. Encouragement for my husband and myself as we are, in reality, facing this alone with the Exception of God being for us. A Daily visit or an email would be really nice.
          3. A minivan as ours is no longer truly reliable to get us from point A to point B. This is where we have had to trust God for our safety. I need reliable transportation to get me to my doctor's appointments.
          4. Prayer for numerous Breakthroughs in our lives. Finances, Medical Insurance for myself, For our Marriage to be strengthened, For My Healing, For God to place people in our lives who will truly be there for us and who are truly for us and not just with us, For my Major Depression and PTSD,
       

These just to name a few of our most urgent needs.

I know that God has a good plan for my future!
Regardless of how dark and dank it feels right now.

Until Next Time,
Karen

Today has been really hard

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Hello, My Friends *waves*

Well, so far every door I have tried to open to get me my proper treatment for my medical condition has been slammed shut so please pray for Jehovah Nisi to show up on the scene. I truly need a Miracle and breakthrough.

This is a reminder to myself so pardon me for a moment.....

"I have a dream and I will push through the darkest of nights to embrace the beautiful rays of the coming dawn." ~by Karen M. Roth 

My deepest desire is to just be an inspiration to some one else that reflects a 360 degree turn in their life and thought processes, but at the moment I am having to encourage myself.

It is truly hard to not feel sorry for myself when everything has trumped itself against me. But I know that Whatever weapon has set itself up against me shall not stand. That whatever has been meant for my harm God means for my good.

BUT:
 I know that it is when it is darkest that your miracle is right at hand . So I must keep pressing forward for my true  God-given Destiny is at hand. This is just the Test.

I am not what I have become and my circumstances do not make me who I am.

I am beautiful, smart,loving,compassionate, and creative......

I am just having a bad day, but I know this bad day will not last forever. I will have my victory.

I know that God has not brought me to this without the tools and skills I need to overcome this ....I am just facing my test....How well will I do ? I am forcing myself to look past my condition to see my future and the Blessings God has in store for me.

One Lesson to be learned in this and it is this.....Now I know exactly what people with Traumatic illnesses have to deal with so in the running of my non profit "Gentle Whispers of Love" I will know just how to tailor my reach and outreach.

Thank you, Lord for this Lesson and I pray that you will help me keep focused on the fun things and not on my excruciating physical pain which has debilitated me so much so that I am barely able to walk. Lord I am crawling to the beautiful feet of Jesus please water my desert. Let the springs pour forth and renew me with the Strength and grace of the Eagle I am flying in the shadow of your wings. Raise me to such heights that I can never reach on my own. In Jesus' Name, Amen

When Life Rains Down Persimmons.

Hey there Y'all! *waves and {{{hugz}}}*

So how to decide what to do when Life rains Down Persimmons....

Well, My Friends , You have one of 2 choices.....

Choice # 1 Milk it---> You can curl up in a ball ,weep, and isolate yourself from people period and let your health continue to get worse and worse because life has never been fair to you.

OR

Choice # 2 Juice it ----> You can buck up and put on your big kids undies, lose the Binky, the Blanky and lay all the garbage going on in your life at the precious feet of Jesus and His redeeming work on the Cross and pick up a much lighter burden of just resting in the Peace of God knowing that no matter what evil has befallen you  ( Every person has had one at one time or another in their life) that we have the (to quote my favorite song by @Chris Tomlin +) "King of Angel Armies by my side...I know who goes before and I know who goes behind....He is a Friend of mine" Just to quote my favorite parts of my all time Get-out-of-the-Funky-Pit song!  (Whom Shall I Fear (God of Angel Armies)  from the Burning Lights CD). Thank you so much +Chris Tomlin The Christian Music Artist, +1 Fan here in lil Ol Ellensburg WA!

 While you may have more of an burden than the person beside you, but know something to now quote @Joel and Victoria Osteen +lakewood church , "Hurting people hurt people." ( This was such an invaluable lesson for me to learn myself ,  I thank you, Joel,  for your wonderful Insight and for just being Real {{{hugz}}} to you and your lovely wife Victoria! AND Your wonderful Mama!) 

So,  Peeps, before you get mad and take offense at people for dumping on you when you already have more than your share of wounds and hurts please take a moment to remember:

1. Every person has a Story to tell about their own Journey through this thing we call "Life".

2. The person hurting you is hurting themselves and are in need of help as well.

3. That not every person on the Earth is going to like you no matter how you may sacrifice and change for this person.  

Start looking for the Lesson (s) to be learned in amongst your pain, suffering, and sorrow and believe beyond a shadow of a doubt that God truly means only good for you...that while He may not remove you from your situation He can bring the whole thing about for your good and in the process blessing you doubly. God will replenish all the years that the Locusts have eaten. You may have to wait quite a while for it but know this IT WILL HAPPEN!!!!

I do not know which choice you will choose to make,  but I can assure you that I choose to JUICE IT!!!!

I choose to LIVE Abundantly and FREE. Life is Glorious and Beautiful when you clean off the Windshield of all the bug guts!

So until next time,

Karen

P.S. If ya would like to say a prayer for me,  these are the things:

1. Health for both the hubby and myself. Multiple major things going on all at once.

2.a comfortable mini-van (CV joints are getting ready to break and the van is too old to repair but we seriously do not have the money to replace the things we need to replace.

3. A bed-  our Box Springs are broken. 

Joel and Victoria Osteen say that God Holds Our Victory ... (+playlist)

For most who truly know me, know that I have always tried to live my life according to God's Word, yes, I have made poor choices in my life that even to this day I am experiencing the ill effects of, but I will not live a defeated life. Because God has been so good to me even in the midst of the harshest things that life and Satan could throw my way. I am still alive and still treasuring God so much more than my own physical life.

Because I always remember that God's Mercy is new and fresh every morning. We are given a new beginning every morning we wake up. So I am choosing to receive the blessings God has in store for me by faith and that I know that even though it looks like everything is coming against me all at once and having such tribulations and trials God has a good plan for my life and I am believing that. I know I have God's favor and approval even if the people in my life turn against me.  I know that it is time to tell them I love them but they do not control me I belong to God and God alone. If anyone stands against me and does not support me then I know that they were only "with me" and not "for me",  I am waiting for my divine relationships in my future......I also know that when it is the darkest....that is the very moment I will get my Victory! So I will continue to press forward.

So far I have overcome being a Sex slave, Pornography, Alcoholism, Smoking, Fear of Abandonment, my "stinking thinking" as my Pastor Dave Saltzman calls it ;o) , Being in a Victim cycle that led me from one bad abusive relationship to another, Domestic Abuse,
I have overcome the very Messenger of Satan Himself with the Lord's help....So I know there are Victories to be had and it has pushed me beyond myself and to grow in ways I never even thought possible and ,Friends, it can happen for you as well, just turn to God for your daily or even moment to moment strength as he has promised to give us "Strength for the Day".  And we also find in Philippians 4:13 that "We can do ALL things through Christ Jesus who strengthens us".


So I want to encourage you to step out of Defeat and into the Good life with Faith (Remember that all it takes is a Mustard Seed size Faith and you do not have to come clean to come to Jesus just meet Him where you are at this very moment) and you will receive the Victories that you need in your life...Just Hold On to Jesus. He will never forsake you or leave you even when everyone else in your life has.  Just remember that God is bringing better people into your life to help strengthen you and to help you grow to maturity.

May You Be Richly and Abundantly Blessed......

Until Next Time,
Karen

Inspiration for the Day and My Thoughts

I openly admit it I am a Christian and I will always hand God this life of mine as it is not my own I was just blessed with it for a little while. God has been the Father I never really had in my life and for my Comfort He was my Friend when I had none that I could call true. God is Faithful and True as he knows everything even the things that you are keeping so well a secret from those close to you. Just stop and turn around where you are this very moment and look up and run to the open arms that have been there waiting for you to just stop running and to turn around.  Please, let Him be your life and your all. He does Love you and has only your eternal good in heart and mind. He is the only thing that can fill the void in your heart that you have been trying to fill  so desperately without success.



 I am so glad that I have found Joel Osteen!

 Mr. Osteen has been such an inspiration in my life especially here lately since I have been too ill to attend my own church. I even watched his dear father before he passed on to a much better place. That is one reason I miss my television and Cable....

But behind every Godly man....

Dear Joel, is a an equally strong Godly Woman.....So Remember to thank your sweet wife Victoria for all that she supports you in and for all the times that she had said silent prayers for you and the silent tears she shed for you while she was alone at home.

Dear Victoria, Remember to thank Joel for all the times he has Spiritually Led, Protected, and Provided for you. For all the times he was praying for you when you thought he did not even care.

And I personally want to pray for both of you as I know only too well that to whom much is given , much is required. That you are fighting battles the public eye never sees and I want to thank both of you for your faithful service. Never lose your Hope {{hugz}}

So Men, Remember that God put us women here to help you to see the details of how to get from point a to point B. We women are the Nurturers and Comforters in your life so let us do our God-given job will ya, please?

But on the same note, Women remember that God gave you your man as your Protector, Spiritual Leader and Provider in your life so Women hear me well, Let your Godly Man do his God-given job in your life will ya, please?

This is the point where most marriages fall apart because we are so busy trying be who we are while neglecting to see the other person for who they are in Christ Jesus. Because we are so focused on all the petty little things that the other person is doing that we cannot stand or just plain do not like. Satan has you right where he wants you he got your eyes off the Redeeming work of the Cross and the Unconditional Love of Jesus Christ our true Role Model. 

So Let us readjust our Focus daily by spending time with Christ before we even start our day, because when you have spent time with Christ then the petty stuff of the day just washes off of you and you can say, " It Don't Matter, I love you". 

Because I will tell you a little clue, Love and Complements will win more battles than all your nagging,screaming,ranting,raving and if you just look at that finger staring you in the face it is your own telling you that you are not what you should be or where you should be. So just pause and go meet with God.

Until Next Time I will leave you with this thought.......

  

Shake off doubt, disappointments, self-pity, little dreams, little goals and make room for a flood of God’s goodness.
— Joel Osteen (@JoelOsteen) October 23, 2013

Time to Face the Facts, Ma'am...Let's Get Real!

Flat Belly Diet Recipes - Prevention.com This is a week's worth of healthy dishes and a shopping list for MUFA"S. It's like a Mediterranean Diet.

I am getting serious about getting serious about losing weight in a healthy way to also reduce my high Triglycerides. 255 is just too high. But I also want to make sure that it does not trigger my food allergies and Migraines so it may be trial and error for a while but I am praying that my hubby will jump on this boat with me.

At least my hubby is lucky in one aspect, he can still exercise by going hiking whereas I am not able to do so as I can barely even walk.

So say a prayer and wish me luck!

See what I mean?

Hey, it was windy what can I say, lol :o)

Ok, Folks, It's time to Get Real.....

For only being 5 foot 3.25 inches tall I do weigh way, way too much. I weigh in at sopping wet 155 pounds. I should be at 120 pounds, but I think 110 would be better for my Fibromyalgia, Arthritis, Undifferentiated Spondyloarthrophy, Asthma, COPD.

The changes will start as soon as I get over this stupid Salmonella H. Bug....I do not in any way shape or form wish this on even my worst enemy. 

I am already walking twice a day.  Gonna start back on my strength exercises to try to get my Core Muscles back since I have lost them all due to being in so much physical pain. It will be an all uphill battle but I have something that is pushing me forward....My Vow Renewal.

 I love my husband Ben ever so much more than even he realizes. I see him in a way that noone ever has, I do not see him as he is but what his true potential is.  His family had pretty much left him to himself instead of dealing with the fact that he is Developmentally Challenged. They treated him like he was always "Normal" which was the worst thing they ever could have done. I do give props to his sister Ruthi as she has spent a lot of time trying to make up for the way they treated him when he was younger. Yes, he requires special care.  He does require a lot more patience, more compassionate love, more understanding that sometimes things just do not click correctly in his mind,  but let me iterate,  that this does in no way make him stupid, unintelligent, or a troublemaker throwing a temper tantrum in any way. He is super intelligent but he has Social Anxiety that blocks his path. If you put too much pressure on him he will have a complete Mental Meltdown...So I have learned that it is best to just say what I want to say to him and then just keep quiet and just let him process what I had just said. Sometimes it takes longer for him to understand than others. Then I let him come to me when he is ready.  I have learned that if you let him take things at his pace, life is much more enjoyable for both of us. 

But I am not without my own faults, I suffer from Abandonment issues from my own childhood, PTSD, Anxiety, Panic Attacks and to boot a major bad Anger Management issue. Plus, living with the poor choices I made in regards to both of my beautiful Children Brianna and Cody for which I am truly regretful, but I cannot change my past I can only acknowledge it and learn the lessons to be learned , ask for Forgiveness and to accept the wonderful mercy of God and move in a Forward Fashion. But I do truly pray for them daily and ask for Restoration of our relationships when they are both ready. I love you both more then you will ever realize. Will you please take the Higher Road and Forgive me?

 But first,  I just want to say that I am so very Proud of you Brianna, You are Strong, Smart, Creative, Precious and Beautiful. Cody, I am so very proud of you, as You are Sincere, Handsome, Brave, Precious. I still retain all my Precious Memories of our good times. I ask that you forgive me for all the hurt I out you through when I thought that sincerely I was preserving your lives. But the one person I had trusted had let us all down because they refused to get the help that they needed. I will not mention this person's name as I am still praying for them to accept the Medical and Mental help that they need. But in everything, I have chosen to forgive and release all the burden's that came from Guilt, Shame,Hurt,Wanting Vengeance for being used, abused, and tossed into the garbage heap. For being unwanted ....

  But I just want to say that God has been very gracious to all of  those involved in our lives and know that we are "Growing Slowly Wise". Thanks to dear Mr. David Roper I have been realizing alot of my own errors in the way I was handling things.  I now realize that everything I say, think or do boils down to this, Which Choice Will I make? I can choose to take the low road and be miserable for the rest of my life or I can choose the higher road that in the end benefits everyone in my life. So from now on I choose the latter. { NOTE***** I will willingly freely Sponsor this author and publishing company Discovery House.*****} All I can say is if you slowly read and chew on just the facts not your imaginations you will definitely learn alot and have a strong season of Growth.

I pray that you and yours have a marvelous week  and I choose to Bless and not Curse. This is not something done lightly. It has taken much thought, tears, and woundedness and acceptance of self as I am to come to this point. 

But like the Butterfly, I am in my Season of Growth and,  yes,  it may hurt for a time, but it is only temporary as you look at Eternity with The One who has Redeemed me from the pit of Eternal Death. Thank You Jesus for Loving even me.....

Until Next Time,

Karen