Wednesday, April 27, 2016

# 1 Enemy in all the World.....

Hello Dear Friends and Followers,

I had not intended for this message today but it needs to be let known so perhaps you will understand why I have been missing in action on here for so very long....

I wish this were not true but it is and I can feel it in my body .... But I serve a Mighty God who is more powerful than what I am about to share with you all...AMEN!

I would like to ask for prayer today. I just found out accidentally through a snippet of an email of my last Sacroiliac MRI report that was sent to the on call doctor news that I should have received on 1/2014 but did not. I have had one of 2 forms of Cancers since then and only just now found out. Giant Cell Tumor or Chondroblastoma. I am in a lot of pain today. 
I may also have a Mycobacterium Avium Strain that I got from ingesting water from our water pipes. I had the water tested yesterday by the city water guy but he did not test the biofilm in the pipes like he should have. He said it would take a week to get the results back. But I live in a Rural community so they may not have the ability to do this. So who do I call next? The EPA?
Plus, My SAD (Seasonal Affective Disorder) is kicking into very high gear today. I have been closed out of my Therapy due to not having been able to attend my sessions since Jan. 2015 due to battling all this plus family issues, too.
But God is Good all the time!!! But I will admit I am afraid as I sit here and watch all my dreams go down the toilet. Our Vow Renewal I have been working on for the last 4 years, the dream of taking my Crafting Blog to the Professional level, to finally own a home with a lovely cottage style garden and my own Craftroom, being able to go hiking again, the Restoration of my children and the rest of my family to me under Godly circumstances and my deepest desire to have another baby to raise since I was forced to give up my children thanks to my mother. I can almost feel for the person who stated it is all meaningless..... But I know better even if I cannot see it right now. God has a Plan for me, not to harm me but to prosper me... That was the locusts ate He himself will restore after a time....that my suffering is temporal.....
My husband took off hiking today with the dog leaving me at home alone and he will not be back until after dark.
So please keep me in your prayers please......Karen

Tuesday, February 2, 2016

Mr. President of the USA I Want to Know This.....

Hello Mr. President,

I realize that your time is very precious especially around Election Time so I want to Thank you for your time and attention to this matter.

I want to know why is it that I am sitting here facing the possibility of 3 different Cancers and yet when my Doctor's Assistant or Nurse (Not sure of her actual job title) calls United Healthcare to get Approval of my Left Hip MRI that I have been waiting for Approval of since December 6, 2014 they just keep putting her through the phone queue tree but noone actually answering her? I was diagnosed with an Enchondroma in 2014. I was to have had a follow-up on December 6, 2014 but was unable to at that time due to no ride available. I called to reschedule.

I am calling today to schedule a Biopsy on my Uterus and a Ductogram.

I have not even been able to get my SSI even though I have-- PsA, Spondylosis, Spondylitis, Fibromyalgia, Hemiplegic Migraines, Inappropriate Sinus Tachycardia with Left Ventricular Diastolic Dysfunction Grade Level 1, Major Depression, Bipolar 2, Panic Attack Disorder, Anxiety Attack Disorder and PTSD. Yet, I am told by the ALJ that I am not Disabled Enough by the Federal Standards. Most likely due to the reason stated in the next paragraph. Many of my diseases are the result of Agent Orange that was dumped on my father before I was even thought of and the Traumas I suffered as a young child and a young woman.

My current Doctor keeps telling me that most of my illnesses stem from Somatic Symptom Disorder.  This is not true. My physical pain and illnesses are and have been very real. Not one doctor is believing me due to what the others have put into my medical records. I found the source of my pain and noone wants to believe me because the Studies have not yet been released from Stamford Medical University on Naltrexone 4.3mg and Fibromyalgia. It was for this reason, I quit taking Percocet (5-325mg) 2 tablets 4 times a day. I am only taking Acetaminophen now, not by refusal as what is listed in my medical records but because of this interaction between the Percocet and the protein in Fibromyalgia patient's body. It was at this time the PSA was discovered after an injury to my neck. I still have not yet been able to begin Methotrexate 2.5 mg due to have had a Sinus infection since September 10, 2015 that my doctor keeps saying is just Allergies. I have a History of Chronic Sinusitis but she refuses to believe this as she only has the Electronic Records which in fact are only half of my medical history. Yes, I also have a history of Allergies but they only affect my eyes and nose not my Sinus Cavities.

Is it simply because I am too poor to be considered human after all? That I am too Disabled by my physical pain and the deformity of my bones to work? I do not even have the money to make sure that my Developmentally Disabled husband is cared for after I am gone and we are in Debt. Mostly because, if I am to be honest, was to try and fill the hole left by my biological family when they chose to throw me to the garbage heap. When in reality I was trying to get the care and love I deserved. (But anyway that is another story). I chose to break the cycle of abuse.

That money is worth more than my life?

 That my father's 3 Tours of Viet Nam meant nothing to the people or Government he fought for Freedom of even to the point of getting Agent Orange dumped on him and his whole Platoon? Who is now laying at home dying himself.

Once again , I want to Thank You for your time.

Please make sure this does not happen to anyone else, please.


Karen M.  Roth
 Daughter of Herman E. Jones III Spc.E-3 Army

Thursday, January 21, 2016

I am Scared .....Need Urgent Prayers

Side view of spine

I am sorry for my blogging absence as of the last few months even though I try top keep up with Pinterest which thankfully also gets FB and Twitter at the same time.

I am a Survivor of many abuses and to this day I am struggling with Complex PTSD and now I am having issues getting my psych medicines I need due to a miscommunication of my primary doctor to my medication manager at mental health. These abuses have taken a serious toll on my body, emotions and mind and yes, my spirit as well. I have had a really hard time letting go of my Past and it has been destroying me and now just when I make to decision to finally let it go .......Bads things happen all at once......
 I am battling with a Sinus Infection I have had since September 2015 and no one wants to give me the long term antibiotic I need. My insurance denied the Sinus Cat Scan that was ordered by another doctor I saw December 29, 2015 while my primary was gone on vacation due to me not having been on long term antibiotics. Now I have an bacterial infection in my left breast and also in my intestines.
I have a Bone Tumor (Enchondroma) in my left leg that is still waiting (after already waiting for a year and a half) on the follow-up MRI to see if it is growing. If it is growing, it means Bone cancer. I do have a painful bump and a extremely tender tendon or ligament. I am praying that it is the Psoriatic Arthritis, if it has to be anything.
  I also have a severe case of Lordosis (Sway Back) in my lower spine and untreated Psoriatic Arthritis, with two other kinds of Arthritis( Spondylosis, Spondylitis) in my Spine along with Degenerative Disc Disease which is extremely painful especially with weather changes. I cannot take narcotic pain meds due to my Fibromyalgia nor use pain patches due to an adhesive allergy. This presents a huge problem when it comes to relieving my pain.
 I am going to be tested for also Breast Cancer and Uterine Cancer.
 I will be honest I am very scared. I am not ready to die yet. I still have Dreams but I am mostly worried about my husband and our Pepper. I have already been in such high intense pain in the past two years that just thought of more pain is too much.
But I am also trying to trust that God does not allow pain without a purpose.That God still has a good plan for me.

So I would like to ask for everyone who passes through here and sees my post to pray for me please.

Until I know more,

P.S. ***UPDATE*** Received Psych medicines,  but still no antibiotic as my primary doctor REALLY wanted the Sinus Cat Scan so it would prove that I do not need the antibiotic which is pure bs!!! I have needed it since the very beginning.  But she did authorize more Mucinex for me. So keep praying ya'll!