|Side view of spine|
I am a Survivor of many abuses and to this day I am struggling with Complex PTSD and now I am having issues getting my psych medicines I need due to a miscommunication of my primary doctor to my medication manager at mental health. These abuses have taken a serious toll on my body, emotions and mind and yes, my spirit as well. I have had a really hard time letting go of my Past and it has been destroying me and now just when I make to decision to finally let it go .......Bads things happen all at once......
I am battling with a Sinus Infection I have had since September 2015 and no one wants to give me the long term antibiotic I need. My insurance denied the Sinus Cat Scan that was ordered by another doctor I saw December 29, 2015 while my primary was gone on vacation due to me not having been on long term antibiotics. Now I have an bacterial infection in my left breast and also in my intestines.
I have a Bone Tumor (Enchondroma) in my left leg that is still waiting (after already waiting for a year and a half) on the follow-up MRI to see if it is growing. If it is growing, it means Bone cancer. I do have a painful bump and a extremely tender tendon or ligament. I am praying that it is the Psoriatic Arthritis, if it has to be anything.
I also have a severe case of Lordosis (Sway Back) in my lower spine and untreated Psoriatic Arthritis, with two other kinds of Arthritis( Spondylosis, Spondylitis) in my Spine along with Degenerative Disc Disease which is extremely painful especially with weather changes. I cannot take narcotic pain meds due to my Fibromyalgia nor use pain patches due to an adhesive allergy. This presents a huge problem when it comes to relieving my pain.
I am going to be tested for also Breast Cancer and Uterine Cancer.
I will be honest I am very scared. I am not ready to die yet. I still have Dreams but I am mostly worried about my husband and our Pepper. I have already been in such high intense pain in the past two years that just thought of more pain is too much.
But I am also trying to trust that God does not allow pain without a purpose.That God still has a good plan for me.
So I would like to ask for everyone who passes through here and sees my post to pray for me please.
Until I know more,
P.S. ***UPDATE*** Received Psych medicines, but still no antibiotic as my primary doctor REALLY wanted the Sinus Cat Scan so it would prove that I do not need the antibiotic which is pure bs!!! I have needed it since the very beginning. But she did authorize more Mucinex for me. So keep praying ya'll!