Tuesday, August 5, 2014

Long Time No See And I Can Really Use Your Prayers

Hello Dear Friends,

It has been one heck of a week for me.

First, it started off with me going to visit my Endocrinologist at +Virginia Mason  for my Thyroid, She promptly sent me straight over to ER as my Blood Pressure was 140/99 and my pulse was 129. Even after giving me 2 liters of fluids which normally affects the heart rate, it did nothing to mine and they could not get it to go below 111. So they released me back home to go see my regular doctor which I did the very next day who promptly diagnosed me with Sinus Tachycardia and an Enlarged heart.  It also appears it may all be because my COPD is getting worse.

 I am on doctor's orders to just rest and to avoid any and all kinds of stress at all cost. So I had to tell this to my boss ( the author) so please pray that he is very kind about it and actually lets me rest. It will be hard for him as we are truly down to the very last chapter of his book.

To be honest, I am downright scared of my future even though I know I should not be as a Christian but I am. I finally talked to a Friend from Church last night  about it. I just wish I could talk to my hubby about it but he keeps taking off to go hiking with the dog and leaving me alone for hours. I think and my friend thinks that it is because he cannot handle what is going on with my health and that he might be truly frightened but not knowing what to do about it. That coupled with his having a Mid-life Crises.

That is where it stands for now.

I will post more as I am able to do so.

Until Next Time,

Love,
Karen

Wednesday, July 2, 2014

Major Bummed....I am lost in the Vast World of Boredom

Hi there my Friends *waves a paw*

Sorry to have disappeared.....We lost our internet and cannot afford to get it back again. I
have just been approached for an editing job. I am taking it.....Yay and it's for pay!

God works in mysterious ways!

In health news, I have been in the hospital for a short three day heavy antibiotics and Prednisone stay. Now I have had 2 colonoscopies within a month of each other ugggh! I have been diagnosed with Lympocytic Colitis which is good news.  It is not Ulcerative Colitis like they originally thought.

I think I may have a very rare Endocrine Disease that I have been trying like mad to find the link to the article for my doctor.

Catch ya later!

Monday, May 19, 2014

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A Blanket to Dye for.....My Current Undertaking....


How Do You Do?

This is my latest undertaking :

Torn Fringe Trim
Torn Fringe Trim 
Fringe
The Fringe is mostly reusable, Yeah! Free Trim for me!

The Blanket to Dye for....It was given to me by a neighbor for free.
I am in the process of trying to dye it blue. Pray that the Kool-aid works as the Food Coloring did not :o(.

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I just love the Crewel work on this blanket, but I despise it being white in a place that owns a black haired puppy. So I really want it to be blue!

I am going to let it soak tonight since I have added Blue Raspberry Lemonade +Kool-Aid to the water. Please pray it works. It has been soaking for three days in just food coloring but it did not even touch it.

I am also dyeing white rose petals I need for our Vow Renewal. 

My Hubby is sooooo very sweet! He bought me white yarn and an extra packet of +Kool-aid! Guess what I am going to do ? I am going to try dyeing my yarn blue. I am so excited! Got a question though.....Do I let it dry out in the sun? I would have to lay it over our railing...or on my chair :o)  I had to explain to my loving hubby that the excitement was in the actual process of dyeing the Yarn as he asked a very earnest question of, "Why don't you just buy blue yarn?"  His strength is dealing with Computers, Mine is Creativity. 

Until Next Time,
Karen

A Tad Late......My Easter Tablescape

Just Ducky
Just Ducky 
Front View
Front View

Quilted Carrot Runner
The Quilt-as-you-go Carrot Runner I made :o)

Drawing of Jesus
My Favorite drawing of Jesus done by an 8 year old girl who had died and was sent back with the extraordinary gift for drawing and painting. You can see it in the book "Heaven is for Real

Front Left View
Front left view

Bunny
Some Bunny Love ya!

In the last two pictures you can see all the coffee filters I was dyeing at the time for a wreath I still have not yet had the chance to make as I need a wreath form to do it, lol. I got a bit ahead of myself :o)

The white runner is a gift from my mother-in-law.
The bright yellow placemats were a gift from a dear church friend Lucy.

The main part of the centerpiece is a mason jar craft I did ages ago for Easter. I put floral foam in the jar and poked some faux flowers from the +Dollar Tree covered the top with grass and a couple of plastic eggs. At the time I had a tree branch poked into it as well with little cardstock birds I had made hanging from the branches along with a few eggs. Then I tied a silk ribbon around the top of the jar. <---free :o="" p="" tutorial="">
I take Easter very seriously as well as Christmas. Because without the Lord I would not be alive to be typing and blogging. So I am very Thankful to the Lord for the many times He has saved me from certain death.


Until Next Time,
Karen

Quick and Easy Crafts....

Long Time no See, Ya''!

Flower Scarf Hanger
Flower Scarf Hanger- Using Dollar Tree hangers, Shower Rings
Flat back pearls, Household String. 
Flower Shape
Flower Shape- with flat back pearls.

Shabby Chic Jars
My Favorite! Shabby Chic Jars using household string, lace, flat back pearls and Paint.

Lid 1
Lid 1

Lid 2
Lid 2

Love
My personal reminder that Love is the greatest gift you can give to anyone.....
On the other side of this rock I put Please Turn Me Over...I use it to weight my mail to go out down. Once I get my mail out I turn it from Please Turn Me Over to this side :o).


I do hope that you will try your hand at these simple, but very satisfying crafts.

Until Next Time,
Karen


Ruffle Necklace

Howdy Friends,

This was done quite some time ago and I never got around to sharing it so here it is without further ado.....

Ruffle Necklace
Ruffle Necklace

What I did was crochet three different layers and then sewed them together at different depths.
It worked up really quickly and was fun to make.

I have another necklace in the works that is my own design. As soon as I can write it out I will post it here. May take a while though.


May you have a wonderful................. and God Bless you richly! <---fill :o="" are="" blank="" in="" p="" the="" wherever="" world="" you="">
Until Next Time,

Karen

Live,Laugh,Love...Believe...

Welcome, My Friends!

I am sorry that I have been offline for so long, but the net connection we are currently using is up ...then it's down...then it's up ....then it's down. Which I mean it is down more than it is up :o(.

I so want a dedicated line, but we still owe $129 and some change on our old bill that my hubby refuses to pay. It would be so lovely if I could open our mailbox one of these days and have a gifted check to pay for our bill so we could get hooked back up again. But as of now, it is just wishful dreaming and right at the time I so want to get professional with my blog and non-profit. Just another mountain standing in my way.

 Lord, help me overcome this obstacle in my way, please. You are my provider Jehovah Jireh. Thank you for meeting this huge need of ours. I Thank you and praise your Holy Name and i ask this in Jesus Precious, Precious Name, Amen. Now who will stand in agreement with me? 

I have been using my down time to work on WIP's and I actually finished two of them last night!

Live...Laugh...Love
Live...Laugh...Love

Glittered hearts
Glittered hearts

Paint Chip Hearts
Paint Chip Hearts

Believe...
Believe...

Chronic Illness Butterfly
Chronic Illness Butterfly -
I chose Blue to represent +Chronic Illness
 as I suffer with several Chronic Illnesses.

Courage, Inspiration, Love
Courage, Inspiration, Love -
I chose Red to help me gain Courage,
To give me Inspiration while Crafting,
And to remind me that the greatest of all is Love.

Possible
All Things are Possible....

Believe
The beginning of Faith is just to simply Believe

Live, Laugh, Love, Finished
Live, Laugh, Love finished

Believe Finished
Believe Finished

The paper flower was made by me out of a coffee filter that I had dyed.
The streaks you see on Believe is just where I took my ink pad and ran it around the outside edges of the canvas then I just held it even with the canvas and rubbed it up and down the canvas.

FYI: The three colors you see on my canvasses are the colors I am going to use on my Major project.....A Free standing Bathroom Cabinet. I am so excited to do it but I resent the work it takes to just be able to paint it...ughhhh! But it will totally be worth it when I am finished I do believe :o)

Until Next Time,
Karen

Monday, May 5, 2014

I have discovered that Google+ is Evil on the blogger Personal Blogs.

Just a quick note to let my Followers know that I have (If I did it right) Removed Google+ Comments so that all can post  here instead of having to sign up for Google+ first.

Very Painful Vacation & A New Diagnosis

I know I was gone for a long time....Want to guess where I have been?

I was admitted to the local hospital after an Emergency Trip to the ER.

I spent three long days and 2 even longer nights in the hospital.

Short story is that I ended up having a really nasty infection, tons of longstanding inflammation throughout my entire body and a unsuspected abscess growing in my colon. I honestly did not even know I had anything until the Colonoscopy procedure on the very painful last turn  but I went on home and scrubbed my toilet and at 6:30 a.m. the very next morning I had a Temperature of 100.7. I was able to get it back down until after my nurse called me back and said straight to ER with you do not pass Go. Then once I had been in ER for a few hours it spiked again to 100.3.

It seems the Colon Scope had struck my Abscess on the last turn back out and that is what triggered everything into motion..

My new very much unwanted Diagnosis is Ulcerative Colitis.  Here is a good site to learn more about this little nasty disease http://digestive.niddk.nih.gov/ddiseases/pubs/colitis/

I am still very weak so I am off for now but wanted to keep you all updated.

Until Next Time,

Karen

Sunday, April 27, 2014

The "Real" Me Getting Very Real with My Followers.....

The Real Me Karen M. Roth at Christmas 2013


I have included this picture of myself as I am finding out because I am a bit too informational and detailed about my life people do not take me for Real. It is because of such an attitude from my online followers, friends {and otherwise} and the people in my RL being too Busy and too stressed to have time for me and because of the lack of affection and love from my own husband  that on April 4, 2014 I almost was no more.

 I felt so rejected, unloved, and unwanted {not including the fact I wanted to see my father before he dies and to see my brother who I am have not seen since 2007} that I tried to kill myself.

All because no one truly is interested in my Life's journey, the pain, suffering, the major losses in my life....My Story,  yet I listen to other peoples stories completely before I form an opinion of them.

I am only telling you now just so you will know what has happened to me all this time.

I do have happier Craft related posts to make, but right now my health has taken a serious toll on me and I am so weakened that I can barely make it from my bedroom to my desk. Plus, prepping for my Colonoscopy. Which is the 30th.

The Special Adrenal Gland Scan just revealed a Benign Fatty Tumor on my left Adrenal Gland which still is not telling them what is truly wrong with me. Other than a possibility of it being Cushing's Syndrome or Poly Cystic Ovarian Syndrome (PCOS) but the Gyn is not convinced that PCOS is the problem. I am scheduled for removal of the Mirena to see if that will fix my problems.

I just know that I am feeling weaker by the day and I have the most awful feeling in my lower legs and feet that never stops. My vision has been adversely affected. I am now also using Fentanyl patches and my pain is still above that.

Well, that is it for now

Until Next Time,
Karen

P.S. Does anyone even care about me at all?

Monday, March 17, 2014

Missing in Action, Update and Special Request......

So Sorry I have not posted anything in so long but I ended up in the Emergency Room the last week.

May be TMI,  but you need to know it all  to semi understand the level of pain I have been dealing with for the past two weeks. The first four days I did not use my Prednisone thinking that resting and icing would get it back under control,  Major Ouch,  bad move do not copy me please!

But anyway here we go,

The ER visit revealed that I had Internal Hemorrhoids. Ouch # 1. In this case they are genetic not from straining.

My Two part Pelvic ultrasound found "Small Follicles" on both ovaries and during the past two weeks they have been taking turns 'popping'. Any Lady who has had this will understand this pain. Ouch #2.

Then I ended up with a severe AS (Ankylosing Spondylitis) flareup in my lower spine. Ouch #3. I am currently on Prednisone for it which has been helping which is why I am able to post today :o)

Then to top it all off,  I just found out I also have Sensorineural Hearing Loss. 74% loss  in my Left ear and 65% loss  in my right ear.  They want me to get a pair of Hearing Aids valued at $1900.00. There is no way I can do this and I have asked family for the help,  but have not heard back so if anyone has received them through the Medicaid Program please chat at me please!  All the hearing loss due to a stupid neighbor girl who lit a Ladyfinger Firecracker and stupidly kept holding it in her fingers even though I kept telling her to throw it down . However, She did suffer a consequence, lost part of her thumb. I am a bit angry about it, but I am choosing to forgive her.

I saw my doctor today and I am asking for the same doctor that put my IUD in as I do believe that I have had PCOS (Poly Cystic Ovarian Syndrome) all this time and the Mirena IUD has made it worse. Ouch #4. If any other lady has this, please, chat at me. I am curious to understand the PCOS Diet and which medication is the best one. On this note, I am scheduled for a Contrast CAT Scan to make sure there are no masses that Dr. Longo needs to know about.

My Pulse rate today was 100. my blood pressure was 104/72 and I have lost from 155 down to 147 without trying to lose weight. I am starting to get a bit worried here as my heartbeat has slowed down.

I am also trying to get the money for a plane ticket back home. I ended up being scammed By EZ Cash Advance and had to close my account and open a new one.  I will try to get my link for Donations fixed later this evening if not , then it will be tomorrow morning. I am so sorry about the mess right now.

So please pray for me.

Until Next Time,
Karen

Sunday, March 2, 2014

Trying to Drown My Sorrow With Crafts

It has been very hard for me to be stuck in the western part of the United States while my family is in the Midwest. Especially knowing that my family truly needs me and not having the money to get a plane ticket to fly back home to help out.

So I have been drowning my sorrow in a few crafts.

I made this out of 11"x 17" paper (Legal). I folded it in half then I used needle and thread to bind it. I found a pretty piece of scrapbooking papers that I had gotten at Target and pieced the pieces together. Then used fancy scissors to detail it for the tags I used my new Fiskars Lace 3 way punch ( I love it!! ). Then I put some good old Elmers on the spine and wrapped the paper I  had pieced together around the legal paper and clamped it down with 6 mini binder clips.

Just a different perspective of the notebook I made.

Me and My Ideas :o)

The Butterfly and pearl wreath I had previously posted before I had finished it. It is now welcoming Spring and it will be used again for our Vow Renewal. 

This is the back of my Encouragement File I put together after reading +Joel Osteen's "Every Day a Friday" It is an awesome book and I highly recommend it !

This is the bottom part of the front. 

Aren't the Birdy and the butterfly just so sweet?

I forgot to use the Macro button when I took this but it shows the two Martha Stewart Heart punches I had previously won on EBAY. I LOVE EBAY so much that it is the way I have been gathering up everything for our Vow Renewal. 

This is the front part of the lid to my case. I tried to capture the two clear beads I used on the elastic you wrap around the envelope.

I tried to get the birdy up close so you can make out what the stamp says inside the birdy itself.

I am going to finish my sweater necklace I am making. I am so excited about it as it is my own design,  a OOAK....(One of a Kind).

I have also made an Exercise Binder to help keep me motivated to not only exercise, but to eat healthier, to help me understand my illnesses better and how I can manage some of the symptoms. I still need to set up the time I want to do my exercises every day and I am going to change the exercises up so that I am not doing the same things day after day except for the stretching. Not sure when I will start, but I will let ya'll know when I do. My goal is to be able to walk down to the end of our field approximately a 1/4 mile without having to stop and rest every few steps for 20 minutes. I really want to walk down the aisle on my own two feet , arm and arm with my dear sweet husband Ben. It is going to take a bit as currently I am on a walker and a cane. Barely able to walk to the mailbox and to the front office at the clubhouse. :o( So please pray for me and wish me well in my adventure to learn to walk unaided again. My most important dream it is be able to dance with my husband on the eve of our Vow Renewal. I want to waltz  to Beethoven and Bach. A true Victorian Romance *Swoons*

   Woo me , My Darlin'. You have all of me, heart, body, mind and soul. I have eyes only for you. None other will do, only you for me, My One True Love. Heart and Soul you are the piece that makes me whole.
Until in Heaven we should meet, Only you make my heart beat. I shall profess my love for thee both near and far. {©2014 Karen M. Roth "Profession of Love"}

"Oh, How I love thee, Let me count the ways...." { Elizabeth Barrett Browning‎} 

Until Next Time,

Karen  



    Please Consider donating to my plane ticket fund to get back home to care for my Parents and to see my brother. Please read this post update for what you will get in return for donating: Please Help Me out....Help Me Get Back Home

Wednesday, February 26, 2014

Less is More... More of Less of Me.

Getting Real:

They are doing an ultrasound on my Gall bladder as it is failing. Checking my heart as it has slowed too much. They still have not figured out the reason for my dizziness that is so severe that I am not even able to walk..  My Potassium level is too low 2.5 and the doctor cannot figure out why it keeps dropping so low or what is even causing it.

My Doctor told me and my husband that I will never ever be able to work again period. But yet I am still trying to do what I am able to do to help myself out.

Positivity is getting me or you nowhere. I am dying,  there is no light way to put it. My father is dying and my mother is in very ill health herself and unable to care for my father. I just wanted to spend some time with my family before I do die.

I tried being open and honest about my dire situation, but it seems to have backfired on me instead and now I am being looked upon as a fake and a scam artist. Which could not be farther from the truth.

I am about to the point of just giving up on living,  period,  just because the people around me and in my life are so shortsighted that they cannot see past their own noses to see another's suffering and pain,  and to be a stepping block instead of a stumbling block. I have been hindered enough. I just need help.

When did the world grow so selfish and uncaring about their neighbors?  Their  friends, their loved ones?

What happened to "Love your neighbor as yourself." Is that not the only command that Jesus Christ himself gave to us?  Why is it so hard for people to just love on people? Folks,  keep your eyes on Jesus as Jesus is the true form of what Love truly is. Often times it just boils down to a choice, your choice.

 So who are you going to let win in this battle of mine, Satan or God?  Do you not want to be known as the warrior who helped me out when I was completely down on my luck and getting sand kicked in my eyes?

 I know the answer and it is because hurting people hurt others.  I am just tired of being hurt because people are too afraid to trust. When you are too afraid to trust it is because you do not realize just how awesome your God is.

 I know that God will get me there regardless of how He does it. It is just that I thought that maybe my family and friends loved me enough to want to be part of the God-sized plan to get me back home.




Thursday, February 20, 2014

Please Help Me Out.....Help me get back home

Please will you please donate to my plane ticket fund to help me get back to my parents?

I have not seen my parents, nor have I spoken to them in 10 long years due to my mother's stubborn pride and unwillingness to forgive me. It was they who disowned me,  not the other way around,  Now when they need me the most I want to be there for them but I cannot be due to my Ankylosing Spondylitis and possible Cancer zapping us of all needed funds. My hubby and I only live on my hubby's SSI Benefits each month.

Please help me, please. I am not some spammer who wants to scam you all. I am a desperate wife and daughter who truly wants to help her parents in the short time she has left. In fact, just this morning I spoke with the lady from the Assisted Living place that has Memory Care because I want to try and keep my parents together. I also asked her to visit my folks to let them know that I am only trying to help from a very long distance away.....I live in Washington and my parents live in Kansas. This is utter torture for me! I want to be there for them and to show them that I do love them and always have. I also want to be able to visit my only brother who happens to be in prison.

 Please help me however you are able to whether it is with a donation of $ 1.00 or a $100.00.


***UPDATE***

I now have $250.00  in my plane ticket fund thanks to my brother, which was not easy for him to send as he is in prison and gets paid so little on his job. So Bro, here's a shout out to you I love you and Miss you bunches and I really hope to see you soon {{{hugz}}}!


I would have had a loan of $5000,  but it turned out to be a scam. Boy, do I ever feel the fool.

I just really want to get back home,  please,  won't you consider even a $5.00 donation?

 For $5.00 I will make and print out some pretty Stationery and my Daily Schedule.

 For $10.00,  a lacy bookmark. You choose the color,  I choose the style :o)

 For $25.00. I will throw in a hand crocheted Cross with a brightly painted wooden frame

 For $35.00 I will make a scarf of your choosing. I will show the patterns to choose from in a blog post. 

 For $50.00 I will make an heirloom Beaded Christmas Ornament.  

 For $100.00 I will make an Heirloom Bedspread. 




*****Update*****